I recently read Robbie Graham’s excellent book UFOs’ : Reframing the Debate https://www.amazon.com/UFOs-Reframing-Debate-Robbie-Graham/dp/1786770237 and felt the need to explore the theme of how we perceive contact with the “other”, while out walking. When I listened to this monologue I realised it was so full of wind, that I’d have to can it (which is something I’ve done to about 20 monologues). But given it’s a long one (1:45:50) I decided to keep it. So please be warned, it’s full of wind in places and there was nothing I could do to prevent it or edit it out.
In this walk I take up the issue of how humans perceive and make sense of contact with the other. We could call the other ET but it’s not always clear at the time or after, that that’s exactly what it is. I ask how conditioning, belief, perception and self awareness determine how we make sense of an experience. I also suggest that these things change across the human life cycle (brain freeze – I couldn’t articulate this clearly at the time : http://winstonwuttunee.blogspot.com.au/p/blog-page_2171.html) and suggest that every human being having an experience sits at a certain point in the developmental cycle and as a result interprets the experience in a certain way
The point I try to emphasise is that how we perceive and the level of self awareness that we have, both determine how we see the world and how we interpret our experiences.
I suggest that contact with the other is leading us to a greater understanding of the self and reality. This understanding is helping us to grow in a way that helps us to engage more fully with the intelligence of the other.
Hang in there !
I’ve been observing the world since I was a little boy. I’ve always paid attention to the things that other people didn’t seem to notice or care about and that same trait has stayed with me into adulthood.
I notice certain trends now (as I have for the last 30 years), about where we’re heading as species, that I don’t like but am largely powerless doing anything about. I do however, have some power, to influence human perception and understanding of the ET subject, in some small way, that sends ripples throughout the human perception of time.
I was always impressed by the Iroquois proverb about thinking about the impact of what we do on the next 7 generations – the people, the plants, the animals and the Earth (which supposedly came from The Great Law of Peace of the Longhouse People – upon which the United Nations and US Constitutions were apparently framed http://www.ohio.edu/people/hartleyg/docs/Great%20Law%20of%20Peace.pdf). What I like about this reasoning is that it forces you to consider that everything is connected. Throughout my life I’ve tried very hard to live with a principle like this in mind. But if I’m honest, I can barely see the impact of how I live on one generation, let alone seven generations.
A few years ago, one particular ET race asked me to consider how the books I will write about my own ET contact and how to make ET contact, will impact on other humans for the next 10, 50 and 500 years. It was a monumental task but I sat down for several days and thought it through. How one thing connects to another. And I realised, that even if one other person fully understands what I have to share, the impact will be significant. What I hadn’t anticipated were the negative impacts. And by generating an awareness of them, I have been able to choose more carefully how to engage with the world. Remember when Dude told me not to post the 1 minute video on how to make contact ? That was an example that would have had profound negative impacts for me, in ways you can’t comprehend.
Everything in life has a positive and negative aspect and everything we do in life, can manifest both positive and negative aspects. So it’s important to choose carefully what we say and what we do. I have some novel ideas about bio-terrorism (remember my initial training was as a biologist) that could cripple any country but just because I can think of it, doesn’t mean that I should talk about it or share my ideas with another living soul. I’m even reluctant to discuss such ideas in fiction. My son and I have joked about one idea and he truly gets it but he also readily acknowledges that it’s a very dangerous idea. So we all make choices and what’s important is that we make healthy choices that consider a wider perspective that goes beyond our own life and our own time. We are after all constantly laying the foundations for the future and for the lives of all those as yet unborn. The history of humanity as a space faring race, is being shaped now by every idea, every conflict and every struggle for a better world. And the future of all life on this planet, is being influenced right now by our willingness to feel connected to Earth and to make choices that respect the needs of other life forms that share our world.
As I’ve said before, I can’t write about the ET subject every day because quite frankly it bores the hell out of me and because I’m interested in everything, in all of life and not just one tiny little aspect ! If you’re here for that reason now, you should fuck off and find a blog about UFOs or abductees because this isn’t the place for you ! But the rest of you will understand that this blog has always been about ET and I – about other life forms from elsewhere, my relationships with them and about my experience of the human condition. And quite frankly, you can’t have one without the other. I can’t explain to you anything about my relationships with ETs without telling you something about who I am and how I function. And that’s the reality of all relationships. We are defined by each other – we are in relationship to one another, no matter how you label it.
I’m often frustrated when I read about UFOs and ETs and experiencers (more often than not – aliens and abductees) because there’s so much crap ! So much stuff that just isn’t true and so much supposedly about the other and so little about the self. Who are these people having experiences and how does who they are influence their experience and why the fuck is that missing out of the narrative ? I don’t agree with how Mike Clelland sees the ET phenomenon but I really admire the honesty and candour with which he portrays himself – Here is my human experience and here is how I’m dealing with this other experience. Take it or leave it ! That’s what I like about Mike (http://www.mikeclelland.com/ / http://hiddenexperience.blogspot.com.au/) ! So few people in this entire field have such an openness to reflecting on the human experience. The don’tknowness of what I’m experiencing.
There are a lot of people with a lot of opinions about ET contact and the nature of ETs and it’s always been the case that the squeaky wheel gets the most attention (the same is true in all aspects of human life). And because people like me are largely very quiet, compared to others who profess ET contact, it’s much harder and takes a great deal more effort to reach a wider audience. But as I’ve said before, I’m not interested in popularity. Which is why you won’t find me at a UFO/Contactee conference or any other such wankathon ! I am however interested in creating a positive influence and to do so I must have faith that A. The things I am doing are worth doing (and sometimes I’ve had serious doubts about that) and B. That what I am trying to convey will be noticed in the fullness of time. And that’s what really compels me to come back and blog and to slog away at the books I’m writing (when I’d rather be writing a novel or a play !). Because it isn’t all about me ! It’s about all of us and it’s about us and them as one. I trust that some core truth that I share will be noticed by someone, somewhere in the future, if not now. And who knows how that person will influence others and how someone in turn may help in the development of human-ET relationships ? If I convey things well, things will be understood well and if I convey them poorly, they will be understood poorly. So I know that I have to think very carefully about what I say, which is why I can say somethings when I feel like saying them and other things must wait. I’ve made many mistakes regarding things I’ve said (for all manner of reasons) and I need to try to make fewer mistakes, so that things I say are truly understood.
There is a great deal of information about the ET subject that is downright wrong. I think we can safely say it’s wrong for the following reasons :
- It’s poorly informed
- It’s accidental or engineered disinformation or misinformation
- It’s based on cultural or psychic artefacts
- Its created by people with poor self-awareness
- It’s popular because of somebodyness
- It’s shaped by cultural memes
- Any or all of the above.
What bothers me most is that so many things become fact, without any prior examination or understanding. And I guess part of the real difficulty is that you can’t analyse the ET subject the way you can say an ant colony or a supermarket or a murder scene. It’s so otherworldly and confronting to human consciousness, that all we can do is look at the artefacts that it creates. And the most common artefacts are in the domain of human experience. And human experience is of course a subjective experience as much as it is an objective experience. Therein lay a deep conundrum for this entire subject, that will never be resolved.
What I foresee and what troubles me and compels me to speak out, is that what is taken to be fact today and what commands the most attention today, tomorrow is unquestionable and lays the foundation for all that follows. I don’t want to be part of history that is building itself on hollow ground !
I don’t have any real answers about how we can go forward, except to say that you should judge any information about an ET or an ET contact experience, by way of examination of the person conveying the experience. How do they come across ? Do they have any self-awareness or understanding about how their own mental state and ways of perceiving may have influenced the experience or their memories of the experience ? What do they have to gain by what they share and is it reasonable ? Are they being honest about who they are and what ET contact means to them ? Are they driven by fear, unaware ego or a need to be noticed ? What is their modus operandi in sharing the information ? What impact has what they have shared had on them and on others ? Who are the people around this person ? What have tehey sacrificed to open themselves up to the world so publically ?
You can examine a person in any number of ways and I suggest that if someone shares something about this subject that you really want to believe, you examine the person as thoroughly as possible. Just as you ought to when it comes to adapting a spiritual belief (examine everything first !). You can’t always know the truth by simply believing it but you can feel the truth if you truly know how to feel ! There have been many times someone has pointed me to some supposed abductee/experiencer, I’ve listened to them for a minute or looked at their picture and I can feel their lies. You can all learn to do the same thing, if you don’t already. There are honest people in this field but it takes discernment to sense them.
There are very few ideas about ETs that I believe are right and I’m trying to provide an antidote to that, in one of three ways. First, by suggesting to everyone that the only true way to know ET is to know yourself. Know thyself and know life. Second, by sharing my experiences of ET contact with 30 plus races. I’m trying to convey the diversity of that life to open people’s minds and hearts to difference and sameness. And third, by sharing my intimate relationships with several ETs – beings such as Anamika and Dude and at a later time, the group I call The Beloved Carers. Such that people come to know these extraterrestrials, as living beings with their own unique personalities. I’m not going to sensationalize my contact with any ET as something that makes me special or above any one else but I am going to speak out vehemently from time to time about the complete and utter bullshit that passes for truth ! And it will be up to you to decide if what I have to say is worth listening to.
Having lived now for over a decade with tumours since my diagnosis, has pushed me way past giving a shit about what anyone thinks of me and encouraged me to consider very carefully any kind of legacy I wish to leave behind. I certainly do wish to leave a legacy behind, most of which no one else will know about because it’s the stuff that I hold dearest and the stuff I keep to myself. But the subject of ETs and ET contact is something in which I feel a need to leave some kind of legacy that others do know about. And why is that ? I don’t believe it’s for egotistic reasons. I believe it’s because I give a damn and because of the burning need I have for justice and understanding. I’m happy to be the 1 person in a million who says Reptilians and Hybrid Children are bullshit, even if people hate me because of it. I can’t support what I know is false because I know where falsity leads. It leads to ignorance and greater suffering. And that’s why I am consciously trying to transmit certain messages, that go against what the majority of people interested in this field believe. Not because I like disagreeing but because I know otherwise !
So, here are the key things I wish to convey through all my work on this subject (this list may grow in time) :
- The self is boundless and limited only to our perceptions and desires.
- The soul exist in form and formlessness and is not a static entity. It is continually changing.
- All of reality is conjoined space.
- We exist in 5 types of conjoined space – waking life (think parallel lives), dream life, deep sleep, altered states and life after death. Some conjoined spaces are more subtle than others.
- There exist all manner of Creator Races – who seed, create and nurture universes, life, souls and matter. The most developed Creator Races understand the true nature of reality and the self and create entire realities.
- All space faring ETs are benevolent in nature and abide by shared agreements. Hostile (immature) races are planet bound (or solar system bound).
- Early space faring races are monitored and controlled such that they can do no harm unto other non terrestrial species.
- Any space faring ET race that needs help, can ask for it and will recieve the help that they require from any one of the collectives. (No race will, for example, face extinction because of their genetic material running dry or be bereft of materials to support themselves).
- Space faring ETs have no agendas. That is our projection onto them. They are merely doing what they do. The idea of an agenda is a dangerous projection that distorts the truth and will damage human-ET relationships.
- There is no great battle between good and evil. The greater good is always served because that is the natural direction of growth.
- There is no grand agenda for the ET presence on this Earth at this time. They are merely continuing work that they have done for a very long time.
- Space faring ETs have aeons of experience in first contact, nurturing different life forms and the difficulties that face emerging species and the difficulties that arise in relationships between different species. We should trust in their experience and patience.It is in all of our vested interests to do so. (This flies against the comort of most human beings and refelects our insecurity and unwillingness to let go and drop expectations of how things should be).
- Approximately 5,500 years ago the ETs established a kind of structure on Earth to guide in the development of modern humans. This structure which I call The Architecture, was created with inbuilt secrecy to protect humans from themselves and was bastardised by humans seeking control. It was known that this would happen, right from the beginning and allowed to happen, as this is the only way to guide humanity towards the best possible distant future, in which we would survive and become a space faring race. The upper arms of The Architecture are ET and the lower arms of The Architecture are human. The ETs control the flow of information, in which ever way they wish. The current structure of TA is headed by 9 ETs from different races – 3 of which are Creator Races. An Earth born human from a previous human civilisation who is part of this group, has the final say on the welfare of Earth and all key issues related to her welfare. He is the current representative that leads a much larger collective. The ET I refer to as Dude (of the Muajra people) is in the position of what we would think of as second in charge. He resides on Earth 6 days a week attending to a broad range of issues related to now and Earth in the future.
- Some ETs can know anything anywhere at any time and materialise as anything anywhere that they wish. Nothing can be hidden from them. Nothing !
- Anyone can have ET contact. The key ingredients are : self-awareness, pure intention free from self-deception and greed, a deep understanding of why you want contact, a willingness to surrender control and drop all expectation, patience and openness.
- You can have contact with ETs externally in the outer world or internally in the inner world. There is no separation between inner and outer worlds, only the illusion that it is so. Both forms of contact require that you have self-awareness.
- The key to understanding ETs and ET contact is not consciousness, it’s the life force. Understand the life force and you will never feel separated from ETs for a moment.
- Humans can never alter the past. Even though many in the future will believe that they can. (Later I’ll write about the coming Chrononaut Movement and the Religious Chrononauts who believe they can change religious development and re-engineer the human future).
Over the years many people have thrown the research of David Jacobs at me to ponder because they feel that I’m wrong about the ETs and that they are abducting us to fulfill some seedy agenda. I stand by my argument that the notion of abduction represents the perception of one’s experiences at the lower end of the developmental spectrum (https://etandi.wordpress.com/2014/12/21/how-the-perception-of-et-contact-changes-humans/) and not what is actually happening.
I’ve read several of David’s books and listened to many of his interviews. He has done a lot of good work, although I can say little about how he does his regression work or the people that he has worked with.
As far as I can tell he is one of those researchers who sees the small picture – how ETs appear to be to the person who feels powerless. His belief that ETs are infiltrating the planet, is at best naive and myopic and at worst just downright stupid and dangerous. Because David doesn’t seem to have had any contact experiences himself (and no history of contact experiences), he lacks the insight to truly understand the nature of these experiences. While he is right about a great deal of ET contact being clandestine (or subversive), he is completely wrong in his conclusions about what this means and why the ETs function the way that they do.
To play into his conclusions (and the conclusions of others like him), logically leads us to conclude that we live in a dystopian universe where living beings are caught in a battle between the forces of evil and good. Which, based on my own experiences with ETs, is a faulty and unhealthy way of thinking.
I suggest that those who are interested in the subject of ET contact (by whatever name you call it), examine cautiously the claims of people who believe that ETs have a dark agenda and are a threat to us. To take such claims at face value, is to play into ignorance and to lose sight of the larger picture of how different ET races interact with one another and how sentient life has evolved.
The things in this monologue were probably the hardest things I’ve ever spoken about publicly.
Today, I open up and share my thoughts about memory, uncertainty and doubt in the ET contact experience, looking at two of my own experiences 23 years apart. I explore how contact with beings from elsewhere shatters your experience of reality and talk about why I think most people who have contact, avoid talking about uncertainty and doubt and why these things are really critical to making sense of the experience. I post this monologue with some hesitation but do so because I belive that we need to be as honest and transparent as we can be, if we are to truly understand the experience of human-ET contact.
There is some repetitive noise in the early part of the recording due to my shoes squeaking and the squeaking on my iPod cover.
Enjoy ! 😉
According to the Merriam-Webster Online Dictionary, Disclosure is a word first used in 1567, which is defined as :
“the act of making something known / the act of disclosing something / something (such as information) that is made known or revealed / something that is disclosed.”
In legal terms, Disclosure can be defined as :
“An act or instance of disclosing: as a : a lender’s revelation of information to a consumer under the Truth in Lending Act that enables the consumer to make an intelligent decision about the loan b : the revelation to investors of financial information about a corporation or municipality and about the security it is offering for sale — see also prospectus, registration statement. Editor’s note: Disclosure is required for a public offering. c : revelation by a corporate insider (as an officer) for approval of a business transaction that involves self-dealing d : a debtor in bankruptcy’s revelation to creditors of a bankruptcy plan.”
Relevant synonyms include revelation, divulgence and exposure. Related words include bombshell, kick, kicker, surprise, acknowledgment, admission, avowal, concession and confession. Near antonyms include concealment and cover up.
I don’t know who really came up with the idea of Alien Disclosure but I think it would be fair to credit Steven Greer with kick starting the Alien Disclosure Movement and doing most of the ground work. Love him or hate him, he has almost single-handedly created a movement ! Since Steven launched the Disclosure Project (http://disclosureproject.org/), John Greenwald Jr. setup chased up FOI documents and distributed them through The Black Vault (http://www.theblackvault.com/casefiles/), Richard Dolan has put forward his own thoughts on disclosure (https://www.richarddolanpress.com/), Steven Bassett has launched Paradigm Research Group (http://www.paradigmresearchgroup.org/), there has been a Citizen Hearing on Disclosure (http://www.citizenhearing.org/), Grant Cameron has prodded away at the veil around US presidents (http://www.presidentialufo.com/), Steven Greer also created new projects in the form of CSETI (http://www.cseti.org/) and Sirius/Unacknowledged (http://www.siriusdisclosure.com/), Rey Hernandez set up an experiencer based research group FREE (which I think has changed its name) (http://www.experiencer.org/) and recently a new group has arisen with the amusing name of The Disclosure Activists (http://www.disclosureactivists.org/ / https://www.change.org/p/united-nations-world-governments-media-formally-acknowledge-that-extraterrestrial-intelligences-are-engaging-the-human-race).
The idea of setting up a group to force governments of the world to drop their secrecy around UFOs and ETs isn’t new. In 1977 Peter Gersten set up a group called Citizens Against UFO Secrecy (CAUS) (https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Citizens_Against_UFO_Secrecy / http://www.v-j-enterprises.com/caus.html). The group took aim at governments and corporations concealing the truth, in the same year as Close Encounters of the Third Kind hit cinema screens and brought government concealment of the ET presence to the foreground of people’s awareness. Back then most people just didn’t get it. But since then, a lot of things have changed, including our ability to communicate and find information ! What was remarkable about Peter and his group was his willingness to push Freedom of Information and take a legal stance on opening up secrecy.
According to VJ Enterprises, the website which references Peter Gersten :
“For those of you not familiar with Peter, he is a criminal defense attorney who in 1977 brought suit in a U.S. District Court on behalf of Ground Saucer Watch against the Central Intelligence Agency. Pursuant to the FOIA lawsuit, the CIA in 1979 released over 900 pages of documents relating to the UFO phenomenon. They refused to release 57 documents, claiming national security considerations. On June 24th, 1980 Gersten brought suit against the National Security Agency on behalf of his own recently formed organization, Citizens Against UFO Secrecy, for 135 UFO related documents. On November 18, 1980, based upon a NSA top secret affidavit, the Court dismissed the lawsuit stating that “the continued need for secrecy far out weighed the public’s right to know.”
The two key principles identified by Peters group were :
“1) It is against any and all secrecy relating to contact with all forms of extraterrestrial intelligence
2) it believes that the public has the absolute and unconditional right to know about this contact.”
In addition Peter said of his group :
“Pursuant to these principles, CAUS is involved to specific projects to get the truth out:
1) A Freedom of Information Act (FOIA) lawsuit to be filed against the Army based upon the book “Day After Roswell” attributed to Lt. Col. (ret) Philip Corso.
2) “Project:Destination Moon,’ the first civilian, privately financed, rocket to the moon to send back live photos from Sinus Medii to verify alleged artificial structures located there
3) the CAUS INITIATIVE, a viable and practical alternative to Congressional hearings, immunity and amnesty
4) ‘Beyond a Reasonable Doubt,’ a promotional and fundraising video on behalf of CAUS.”
Does any of this sound familiar ? A lot of what has become the modern ET Disclosure movement, was probably mapped out by Peter and the CAUS group.
So what do people mean these days when they speak of Alien/ET Disclosure ? I think most people mean that governments and their leaders will come out and talk openly about their history of contact with beings from other worlds.
I think that there are several core issues in relation to disclosure that are largely ignored. First, we have a lot of expectation about what we ought to be told. What are our expectations and why do we have the right to have them fulfilled ? Second, we assume that our governments know everything about the ETs. Do they really ? Third, we assume that governments were the first conduits for ET contact. Why would they be ? Fourth, we assume that governments were the first official conduits for ET contact, in preference to individuals within governments, corporations or other organizations. Did you ever wonder why Abe Lincoln was the person of choice for official contact before he died ? Fifth, we assume that we can handle the truth. What a load of crap ! We can’t even handle our own waste ! Sixth, we assume that people will get over the truth and that citizens will find a way to adapt to the reality of ETs visiting our planet. That maybe a comfortable assumption for those who want to know, who think they are ready for the truth but is it the reality for most of the human population ? I don’t think so ! Seventh, we assume that it is government’s or others in power who have created the secrecy. As I’ve said before (https://thesomethingmonologues.podbean.com/e/tsm120-a-rough-sketch-of-the-architecture-the-diamond-complex-power-structures-that-rule-the-world/), there are two kinds of secrecy. The secrecy created by the ETs at the top of The Architecture and it is designed to protect us from ourselves. And the secrecy created by the lower arms of The Architecture and it is mostly designed to protect self interests and to protect individuals and groups from public retribution. Eighth, we assume that the disclosures that governments have to make about their interactions with ETs are the greatest of all secrets that they have to hide. This last point is worth emphasizing. So let me make something very clear. Something that I have learned from the ETs themselves. Those in power who hold this information in secret, have much more than a history of ET contact to conceal. They have done things to populations of individual countries, that would make citizens of all walks of life, turn against them. Some of this relates to humans who witnessed ETs and ET craft and some of it relates to genocidal plans that were put into action more than a century ago. If you unravel the ET secret, you unravel all their secrets and this is something no individual or group in power is willing to do.
What most people don’t realise is, that in regard to covert groups within the lower arms of The Architecture, the ET secret goes back to at least Abe Lincoln (It maybe worth exploring other possibilities about why he was killed ?). These groups have kept this secret for a very long time and over the course of that time have developed new ways to conceal the truth and to share the truth. All of it bound by law and powerful legal documents. And obviously what began as a concealment of a greater reality that threatened to undermine their sovereign power and the power of the Church, has transformed into a concealment of a greater reality that threatens to undermine a diverse range of information and technologies, which create profit, wealth and power. Secrecy is always about power. Power in the now. But sometimes it’s also about the perception of power in the future. That’s why military and corporate entities create Strategic Plans, so that they can lay a foundation from here to there, with some degree of certainty. It’s also why some groups have used gifted psychics to profile the future and help them map out a set of desired outcomes and their desired destinations.
I think some sort of ET Disclosure has been in action since at least 1947. But it’s been soft and malleable and adjusted according to how people respond. Obviously the longer the secrecy associated with the lower arms of TA has been in action, the greater the crimes against Earth/humanity and the harder it has become for complete disclosure. What we also have to remember is the longer these groups have been able to commit atrocities against humanity, the less willing they will be to disclose everything that they have done – especially those things that fall outside of the ET subject. So, it might be plausible for them to execute some sort of very diluted plan for ET Disclosure but it can only go so far because with very little effort the links to human atrocities will reveal themselves.
I think that there are four general possibilities regarding ET Disclosure (as most people understand it) :
- It happens when the 9 ETs at the top of TA say it can happen.
- It happens with a plan, as determined by the 16/90 humans in the middle layers of TA or by the lower levels of TA.
- It happens in a very organic way without a plan.
- It is forced to happen by a series of whistleblower revelations of Biblical proportions.
My money is on three possibilities. It is already happening according to a well documented future that the ETs have explored thoroughly and they are following their own plan, regardless of any other human plans. It is happening with a human plan and organically – where the plan continues to be modified, depending on how humanity responds and how particular geopolitical dynamics unfold. It will be accelerated by a series of uncontainable revelations (leaks) that blow all other revelations out of the water !
I think what is clear is that with or without a plan, those in power are attempting to acclimatize people to the reality of ET life and condition them to certain ideas about what it might be like and to influence them to believe certain things which are true and which are false. I suspect that different individuals and groups within the lower arms, have different, perhaps competing agendas, that sometimes pull collective thinking one way and sometimes pull it another.
The question I keep asking myself, is why do people really want disclosure, when they can discover the reality of ETs and ET contact for themselves ? I think the answer might be – because like the Parental Fallacy (see James Hillman) that occurs in most people (who see childhood experience with parents as the key to healthy human development), we think an authority figure has all the answers and will show us the way. Forgetting first and foremost, that we ought to trust ourselves. But we don’t as individuals or as a species and that’s why we always look for answers outside of ourselves.
I’d like to propose a set of categories of ET Disclosure, that I believe more accurately match how things are or could be, rather than what we assume they should be.
1. Full Disclosure Type A (FDTA) : In which members of the lower arms of The Architecture use official government bodies to disclose the nature of their ET contact, ET related work and all other secrets. (I don’t think this will ever happen.)
2. Full Disclosure Type B (FDTB) : In which members of the lower arms of The Architecture use official government bodies to disclose the full nature of their ET contact. (I think this could happen in 200-300 years. I had previously suggested in 100 years. I think I was wrong.)
3. Partial Disclosure Type A (PDTA) : In which members of the lower arms of The Architecture use official government bodies to disclose a very diluted version of the nature of their ET contact, ET related work and other secrets. (I think this could happen in 100 years.)
4. Partial Disclosure Type B (PDTB) : In which members of the lower arms of The Architecture use official government bodies to disclose a very diluted version of the nature of their ET contact and ET related work. (I think this could happen in 25-50 years.)
5. Partial Disclosure Type C (PDTC) : In which members of the lower arms of The Architecture use official government bodies to disclose a very diluted version of the nature of their ET contact. (I think this could happen in 10-20 years.)
6. Nestled Disclosure Type A (NDTA) : In which members of the lower arms of The Architecture use a wide range of outlets and fronts to release small amounts of information about the nature of their ET contact, ET related work and other secrets, nestled within public information that is both easy and hard to find. Such information is slowly and incrementally increased to a point that reaches full disclosure. (I don’t think this will ever happen.)
7. Nestled Disclosure Type B (NDTB) : In which members of the lower arms of The Architecture use a wide range of outlets and fronts to release small amounts of information about the nature of their ET contact, ET related work and other secrets, nestled within public information that is both easy and hard to find. Such information is slowly and incrementally increased to a point that reaches partial disclosure (PDTA). (I think this could happen in 100 years.)
8. Nestled Disclosure Type C (NDTC) : In which members of the lower arms of The Architecture use a wide range of outlets and fronts to release small amounts of information about the nature of their ET contact and ET related work, nestled within public information that is both easy and hard to find. Such information is slowly and incrementally increased to a point that reaches full disclosure (FDTB). (I think this could happen in 200-300 years.)
9. Nestled Disclosure Type D (NDTD) : In which members of the lower arms of The Architecture use a wide range of outlets and fronts to release small amounts of information about the nature of their ET contact and ET related work, nestled within public information that is both easy and hard to find. Such information is slowly and incrementally increased to a point that reaches partial disclosure (PDTB). (I think this could happen in 100 years.)
10. Nestled Disclosure Type E (NDTE) : In which members of the lower arms of The Architecture use a wide range of outlets and fronts to release small amounts of information about the nature of their ET contact, nestled within public information that is both easy and hard to find. Such information is slowly and incrementally increased to a point that reaches full disclosure (FDTB). (I think this could happen in 200-300 years.)
11. Nestled Disclosure Type F (NDTF): In which members of the lower arms of The Architecture use a wide range of outlets and fronts to release small amounts of information about the nature of their ET contact, nestled within public information that is both easy and hard to find. Such information is slowly and incrementally increased to a point that reaches partial disclosure (PDTC). (I think this could happen in 100 years.)
12. Trojan Disclosure Type A (TDTA) : In which members of the lower arms of The Architecture use a wide range of outlets and fronts to release small amounts of information about the nature of their ET contact and ET related work, within a range of ongoing true and false disclosures that have been within public information that is both easy and hard to find. This information is blended with previously released false information, such that over time, more of the available information becomes true. Such information is slowly and incrementally increased to a point that reaches full disclosure (FDTB). (I think this could happen in 100 years.)
13. Trojan Disclosure Type B (TDTB) : In which members of the lower arms of The Architecture use a wide range of outlets and fronts to release small amounts of information about the nature of their ET contact and ET related work, within a range of ongoing true and false disclosures that have been within public information that is both easy and hard to find. This information is blended with previously released false information, such that over time, more of the available information becomes true. Such information is slowly and incrementally increased to a point that reaches partial disclosure. (I think this could happen in 25 years.)
14. Trojan Disclosure Type C (TDTC) : In which members of the lower arms of The Architecture use a wide range of outlets and fronts to release small amounts of information about the nature of their ET contact, within a range of ongoing true and false disclosures that have been within public information that is both easy and hard to find. This information is blended with previously released false information, such that over time, more of the available information becomes true. Such information is slowly and incrementally increased to a point that reaches full disclosure. (I think this could happen in 100 years.)
15. Trojan Disclosure Type D (TDTD) : In which members of the lower arms of The Architecture use a wide range of outlets and fronts to release small amounts of information about the nature of their ET contact, within a range of ongoing true and false disclosures that have been within public information that is both easy and hard to find. This information is blended with previously released false information, such that over time, more of the available information becomes true. Such information is slowly and incrementally increased to a point that reaches partial disclosure (PDTB). (I think this has been happening for the last three decades and will continue.)
16. False Disclosure Type A (FDTA) : In which members of the lower arms of The Architecture use individuals, official government bodies and non government bodies to disclose a false version of the nature of their ET contact and ET related work. (I think this has been happening for the last three decades and will continue.)
17. False Disclosure Type B (FDTB) : In which members of the lower arms of The Architecture use individuals, official government bodies and non government bodies to disclose a false version of the nature of their ET contact. (I think this has been happening for the last six decades and will continue.)
18. Revelationary Disclosure (RA): In which a former insider with one of the highest levels of clearance, within the lower arms of The Architecture, produces evidence that blows the lid off the true nature of ET contact, a great deal of ET related work and many other secrets. Such a revelationary disclosure, will, like in the Book of Revelations, lead to a catastrophic show down between different groups within the lower arms of The Architecture and guilty parties that are identified and the public – who will call for significant retribution, justice and restitution. (I think such an event is highly probable in the next 30 years because good people always find a way.)
19. Standard Whistleblower Disclosure Type A (SWDTA) : In which a former insider with a any level of clearance, within the lower arms of The Architecture, makes disclosures about the nature of ET contact and ET related work. Such disclosures will likely be related to single project but may provide links to other projects. Those who disclose in this way will seek protection via constitutional law and/or some kind of public profile. (I think such disclosures have been happening for the last two decades and will continue.)
20. Standard Whistleblower Disclosure Type B (SWDTB) : In which a former insider with any level of clearance, within the lower arms of The Architecture, makes disclosures about the nature of ET contact. Such disclosures will likely be related to single project but may provide links to other projects. Those who disclose in this way will seek protection via constitutional law and/or some kind of public profile. (I think such disclosures have been happening for the last two decades and will continue.)
21. Dead Man’s Disclosure Type A (DMDTA) : In which a former insider with a high level of clearance, within the lower arms of The Architecture, makes significant disclosures about the nature of ET contact and ET related work. Such disclosures will likely be related to single project but may provide links to other projects. Those who disclose in this way will seek protection via a web of connections and triggers that will be activated should they go down. (I think such disclosures have been happening for the last two decades and will continue.)
22. Dead Man’s Disclosure Type B (DMDTB) : In which a former insider with a high level of clearance, within the lower arms of The Architecture, makes significant disclosures about the nature of ET contact. Such disclosures will likely be related to single project but may provide links to other projects. Those who disclose in this way will seek protection via a web of connections and triggers that will be activated should they go down. (I think such disclosures have been happening for the last two decades and will continue.)
23. Kamikaze Disclosure Type A (KDTA) : In which a former insider with a high level of clearance, within the lower arms of The Architecture, makes significant disclosures about the nature of ET contact and ET related work. Such disclosures will likely be related to single project but may provide links to other projects. These disclosures will include names of projects, participant organizations and individual project members. Those who disclose in this way will not seek out any protection, believing that disclosure is worth any risk to their personal safety. (I think this will begin within the next decade.)
24. Kamikaze Disclosure Type B (KDTB) : In which a former insider with a high level of clearance, within the lower arms of The Architecture, makes significant disclosures about the nature of ET contact and ET related work. Such disclosures will likely be related to single project but may provide links to other projects. These disclosures will not include names of projects, participant organizations and individual project members. Those who disclose in this way will not seek out any protection, believing that disclosure is worth any risk to their personal safety. (I think this will begin within the next decade.)
25. Experiencer Disclosure Type A (EDTA) : In which genuine ET contact experiencers reveal the nature of their ET contact experiences and what they have learned from the ETs. (I think this has been happening for the last six decades and will continue.)
26. Experiencer Disclosure Type B (EDTB) : In which genuine ET contact experiencers reveal the nature of their ET contact experiences and what they have learned from the ETs. (I think this has been happening for the last six decades and will continue.)
This is by no means an exhaustive list of possibilities regarding how we could categorize ET disclosure. All of these possibilities can happen out of the public eye or with single individuals or groups of individuals directly in the public eye. Whistleblowers who come forward may choose to go it alone or come forward as a kind of group disclosure, as occurred with Steven Greer’s Disclosure Project, when witnesses testified before the media. They may also do so through a genuine congressional hearing or hearing before any other elected political body. And while many people think there’s safety in numbers, people who breach their security oaths (binding legal documents that are usually good for 100 years) will still face significant risks to their personal/family safety.
So, ET Disclosure is a big idea that probably means lots of things to lots of people. There are lots of different ways that we can look at the subject and lots of different ways that we can categorise disclosure. The point I’m trying to make in this post, is that ET Disclosure is a nebulous concept and that while most people think they are ready for the truth, they really aren’t. The reason that Full ET Disclosure (as I have defined it in FDTA) is a delusion, is that it means the lower arms of The Architecture will have to come clean about ET contact, ET related work and every other secret that has been kept from the masses. Think of secret information as a giant web (or ball of string). When you tug on one side or several sides of the web hard enough, all the other parts of the web begin to give way. This means that not only will the lower arms of TA be entirely be exposed and forced to collapse but The Diamond Complex (sorry I haven’t elaborated on this yet) will be exposed, laying bare everything about how the modern world is constructed and bring about a major collapse of the modern world as we know it. This would be unlikely to be beneficial in the short-term but ultimately beneficial in the long run. Unless you know what I am talking about, you probably won’t understand my comment. What I would urge you to do is to look at how our history has been constructed and look very, very carefully at the history of the British Empire, India, America and Europe, in particular. Look at how the great Industrial Empires of 18th and 19th century were created and what has become of them today. If you can do that, you will understand why I say that full disclosure will bring about a major collapse of the modern world.
This thing that people call disclosure is really a misnomer because people are confused about what they want disclosed and what could be disclosed, that is connected to what they want disclosed. What people are really seeking is a true account of the history of modern man and empire in the modern age. I would suggest that a better word to describe what it is that people really seek is “Revelation” but unfortunately that word has too many biblical connotations to be used accurately. The problem with whatever word we choose, is that it will either confine or inflate what it is that people truly seek. And whatever word people choose, will mean different things to different people. For now, it seems that we’re stuck with Disclosure. And I think in a couple of centuries when people (including historians) look back at this time, they will refer to The Disclosure Movement. Which is a way will be kind of tragic because the name itself won’t really say enough about what it was all about. But that’s how history often works – poor choices, poor language and poor names to describe things get stuck and get carried. Think of The Crusades, The Declaration of Independence, The Reformation, The Renaissance, 9/11, Age of Man, Middle Ages, Modernism, Modernity, The Plague etc.
Full Disclosure is a delusion that many people are reluctant to let go of because it promises so much. In some kind of mythical way, it promises to liberate people from their suffering and offers them some kind of transcendence because most people have no idea what it really means and are too lazy to do the work of spiritual development for themselves. It’s not that disclosure itself actually promises anything. Its people who load it with all kinds of unrealistic expectations. In addition to Full Disclosure being a delusion (internal deception arising in the individual mind), I think we can also say that disclosure is an illusion (external deception arising outside of the individual). So in a sense disclosure is both a misperception created by us and by others. And that’s a very dangerous thing because if we aren’t aware of our own minds or how influence and propaganda work, we can easily be misled into thinking we’ve witnessed significant revelation, when we’ve merely decieved ourselves and/or been spoon fed another lie or half truth. And as we all know, the masses can easily be manipulated for any cause.
What I would like to see is a systematic analysis of what passes as disclosure and an exploration of what disclosure has been, is and could be; what it means to people; and what the implications of the many types of disclosure could have on the human world as we know it now and in the future.
Until such a time prevails, I believe the idea of disclosure will bounce around between those who seek genuine liberation of the facts and the nutcases of the world who spend more time masturbating and ejaculating on other people’s ideas, than examining their own. If you think I’m being vile and poking fun at a lot of people, I am and for good reason. Because I’m sick and tired of the worlds idiots getting all the attention and hijacking fruitful conversations about how we as human beings wish to live and ought to live. We’ve allready had enough crazy people hijack our species !
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When I posted my retelling of my January 19th, 2011 encounter with the Teal’hia and the Sar’Won’Dee, I mentioned being shown a series of global events that will happen in our collective future. At the time I didn’t fully understand the context of what I was shown and I was never actually told, “this will happen on this date”. I was merely shown trigger events to watch for. I watched global events very carefully from that point onwards and at a certain point I thought events were falling into place and what I was shown was just around the corner. The whole thing made me very uncomfortable and so I reluctantly posted the following video.
A few months later I took the video down because I realised that I was wrong and I felt like an idiot scaring people needlessly and putting my neck on the line for nothing. I was also ravaged by malicious people who seemed to take delight in criticising me. Several encounters later I gained more insight into what I was shown and have had my ass kicked gently by Dude, who encourage me to lighten up. I’m not as yet prepared to discuss what I learned and how what I learned changed how I understand events and what I was shown but what I can say is the following. It seems that in one paralell life (reality) (or part of conjoined pace) these events may yet have happened (as has my distant viewing of the election of Hillary Clinton, followed by a black female president). But in this paralell life (part of conjoined space) they have not yet happened.
I’m posting the video now, only for a limited time, so that you can take note of what I was shown, just in case things continue to unfold in the direction I was shown. I’m only concerned now because of the way that things are currently heating up in the middle east and between the US-North Korea.
Now, at the time I remembered what I was shown, I spoke to my ex Rachel (who you will recall was involved in profiling the human future using poly-location (think bi-location) for a covert group in the UK) and Rachel felt that I was wrong. We’ve talked about it many times and I have come to the conclusion that either I remembered wrongly (which seems unlikely to me but not impossible given the intensity of the experience I had with them) or that she visited a different set of timelines, in which these events did not occur. Rachel had told me on numerous occasions that in her own work she often went back to the same time period and encountered different sets of events and different histories. Which seems to indicate to me that she was visiting subtly different paralell lives/timelines/conjoined spaces.
So, despite cautions from two people I greatly respect, I can’t let this go. Whenever I have spoken to the Teal’hia they have confirmed that these events are still in our collective future. But just what that means, I’m not sure. Perhaps I’ll discuss what else was explained to me at a later date but I’m not comfortable with that now. Maybe my fixation with this reflects more of my own apocryphal disposition, as I’ve suggested previously here : https://etandi.wordpress.com/2014/10/28/the-boyd-bushman-interview/ (ignore the improper address on this post), than a realistic unfolding of our current time line. But I’m going to take a risk and leave the video up for a little while because I am concerned.
Listen to it at your own peril ! In the mean time, I suggest you put whatever I have to say behind you and go back to enjoying life ! I may well be wrong !
I’m going to bed in the next hour, so this will be a very brief post.
I’ve been thinking about the so called Search for Extraterrestrial Intelligence (which incidentally I think ought to be called Search for Human Intelligence – do we have any ?) and I wondered why we seem to have limited it to the micro waves, radio waves, x-rays and gamma rays. Why aren’t we putting more effort into scanning for ultraviolet waves or the visible light spectrum for random and regular bursts of energy, brief or sustained bursts of energy ? If plants use visible light (and other forms of energy) and we need visible light to survive, why wouldn’t some ETs consider communicating in the least exotic form of electromagnetic energy ? The one that is most universal and fundamental to life (as we know it). We may also find that the use of visible light as a transmission mechanism, may have allready been encoded (think about how DNA works) in pigments that are widely distrbuted in plants (and flowers), algae and fungi.
In addition to this I wonder why we aren’t scanning for sound waves in various frequencies and amplitudes, as discrete short sounds or more complex sounds like pulses and melodies. Think about killer whales, dolphins and whales and how they communicate across cast distances and bats and moths and dolphins that use echolocation to build pictures and maps of the world around them.
And of course any search for intelligence elsewhere in the cosmos is limited by our own perception of the nature of reality and our own sense of what exists. Perhaps there are waves at either end of the electromagnetic spectrum that we have not yet discovered or developed technology for, that harbour worlds of communication and conversation.
Finally, we have in recent years become intoxicated with holographic explanations of reality (in which any volume of space can accommodate any volume of matter that we want – think Dr Who’s TARDIS – bigger on the inside and ET craft – also, often bigger on the inside). Why aren’t we looking in some way for ultra-compressed or ultra-expanded forms of energy that may contain huge amounts or small amounts of information, in discrete units of energy or structures like melodies and minimalist like repetitions. Such information might not simply provide content but actually be able to create and change reality for the recipiant or initiate the transformation of some structure or process. Perhaps such information is already encoded in our own sun and in all suns, or in space itself ? Or at the heart of black holes and white holes ?
At present SETI is primarily focussed on – on off, binary signals. Signals that show something turning on and off. I wonder what SETI would look like if scientists tried to tune into a continuous conversation between minds and hearts in the cosmos. Or if SETI scientists did what I and others like myself do and tried to send messages of their own out into the cosmos using thought, feeling and intention. When you practice SETI in this way you move beyond on off/binary communication and move into relationships. That then, is real intelligence !
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Well, here I am again, kind of normal, after what feels like two months distracted with other things. Thank you to everyone who continued to reach out to me and to people like Garbriele, Torstein and Darci, for your ongoing support for my fundraiser. It is as always, very much appreciated and helped in many different ways to make life a little easier.
Some of you will be aware that on January 19th this year I became aware of something very strange (it’s interesting to note on January 19th 2011 I had my merging with the light experience with the Teal’hia/Sar’won’dee), that led to making certain discoveries, that pretty much unravelled my life. It has without doubt, been the darkest period of my life and twice I came close to taking my life. Today I feel fantastic but the situation that I uncovered continues to exist and may take another year or more to make sense of and to resolve – in some way. The events that have come to my attention and have continued to occur during this time are very difficult to explain and include such things as a person from my past, the involvement of a covert group, the involvement with someone with an ET created ‘multiple personality disorder like’ personality, the merging of several apparent paralell worlds/lives, the appearance and dissapearance of several living beings (refer to my Lazarus Effect experiences, which i think I mention in the interviews with Erica Goetsch) and a small amount of ET contact/intervention. During this time I have also had guidance from my deceased guide’s Kanatek/Elly and from the ET friend you know as Dude. But at one point I even doubted Dude’s existence. I was so traumatised by what I had learned I began to doubt everything.
I felt so utterly perplexed and alone during this experience, that I was forced to question absolutely everything that I take to be real. I even wondered at one point if I had already died and was reliving my life again. Even though this was at odds with what I felt to be true. Because this experience involved another person and a covert group to some extent, I felt unable to talk about it with another living soul and very uneasy about reaching out to anyone through the internet or telephone because of the short and long term risks to the two of us (and a potential third person who maybe able to help us). I also feel very strongly that was has happened, would be just about impossible for any other person to comprehend, who has not already encountered and lived with a very high degree of strangeness and uncertainty. What I can say for sure, is that once you have been involved with ETs to a high degree or been involved with someone who has been involved with the HIGHEST level covert projects (that involve work with ETs), your life is never the same again and always prone to unexpected events !
At this point I think I should make a digression. One of my readers – Lisa, had previously asked me if I had read Philip K Dick’s Exegesis or any of the books in the series. Admittedly I had not and at the time Lisa mentioned it, I didn’t know much about Philip K Dick’s personal life. Now that I do and now that I know a little more abut Exegesis and the events surrounding it, I think I can safely say that what Dick experienced and what I have experienced have a few things in common – including high strangeness and confusion and some apparent shifts in reality. Suffice to say, I don’t know enough about Exegesis or Dick to make any further comparison but it seems that what Dick went through is similar to what I have been going through – as a process that is indicative of a major transpersonal crisis and transformation.
The truth is that I didn’t think my life could really get any stranger or any more uncomfortable but it has. I’m OK now but it has been very, very hard. This event has been so overpowering, that it overshadowed my own health problems (after almost a decade, I start my tumour treatment next week) and the death of my sister Susy on February 18th this year. It will take a long time to find answers and have some resolution. The hardest part is that it was totally unanticipated and arrived in the middle of two other major crisis. At one point I was so gutted, I nearly decided to give up on healing and walk away from ever having any treatment ! Come what may ! A month of almost no sleep totally screwed with my head and left me totally obsessed with nothing but finding answers to this one thing ! Now I’m sleeping normally, I feel much better ! Life goes on and my desire to live has returned.
For much of the last 6 weeks I spent 12 hours a day trying to dig up circumstantial evidence online and piecing together evidence from the past. Day after day I was confronted with something I hadn’t seen coming. Things that I’d once felt and suspected but pushed away, were verified. But what they mean, I have no idea. The real crisis underscoring this entire set of events, is that they can be interpreted in several possible ways and what seems most likely is that several different causes have been happening at once. the truths that I have discovered have been so painful, that I have been forced to examine and re-evaluate my entire life.
The positive side of that, is that I’m much more aware than I was of the reality surrounding me and much more aware of who I am than I was before. I’ve also realised first hand that the the people and reality that I thought I understood, are much stranger than I ever thought they were. Ultimately I realise now that I know so much less than I thought I knew about the nature of reality.
During the same time that I came close to taking my life, I began to have uninitiated contact with several groups of ETs. It seemed as if they were well aware of my crisis and how close I was to taking my life.
On February 18th this year I went to sleep in the tent with my son (something we’ve done on the hot nights during summer) and saw a craft blink in the sky above my head, just after my head touched the pillow. I felt an immediate sense of ‘they know’. Then in the early hours of February 20th (my sister died 2 days before) something took place, that I was unaware of until later that day, as I drove to my oncology appointments in the city. My left thigh had begun to hurt in a specific location 16-18 cm above the patella and I had images that seemed to be flashing into my awareness. later in the day, in the middle of my appointments, I went to the toilet and had a look at my leg. I noticed a small white circle, much the same as when the Sar’won’dee came to visit me in my backyard in Port Fairy in November 2009 and took a core sample through my knee joint. When I arrived home later that day, I tried to find the mark but it seemed to have dissapeared. I don’t know if it actually dissapeared or could only be seen under fluorescent light. My leg hurt for 3 days and then the pain seemed to go for 2 days and then returned as a lower level pain for another 4 days. It has since subsided but occasionally I can feel where it was. When I returned home on the day of the 20th, I went searching though my house for any object at the same height, that I could have collided with to hurt myself. But the only objects were below knee level. I did everything to try and find a rational explanation for the pain but could come up with nothing. Several times when I lay down to revisit that night, I saw the same images with the Sar’won’dee but I was too worn out and drained from the other crisis to go through the event fully. I still haven’t done that because I’ve been so tired with all the visits to hospital and the ongoing crisis. I think I can safely say however that I had another visit/sample taken/health check the day I was heading to hospital in relation to my tumours. Some of you may recall the visit of the 4th January last year, prior to my having a CT scan of my tumours. On several occasions it seems, my ET friends have visited just prior to my having check ups in relation to my tumours and on several of these given me an update on my health, that was later confirmed with the scans I had taken.
Then on the February the 22nd my son and I went to sleep in the tent. Prior to going to sleep just after midnight, a craft flashed at me twice and again I felt the sense ‘they know’ and instantly went to bed feeling better, after a long day of researching. Not only did I feel better, I felt a great sense of joy and of being understood and cared for. All of my doubts instantly melted away and I had a deep satisfying sleep ! Prior to going to sleep I set up one of our trail cams to see if there were any more feral cats hanging around the house (which is something I do quite often). In the morning when I checked the camera, not only was their evidence of a cat but evidence of something else that appeared to come and visit me. I was sleeping on the left (in the pics) and my son on the right. The first 3 images appear to contain a ball of light at 3:44:44, the second set of images an hour later appear to contain a ball of light at 4:53:36 and the final two images of me going inside at 4:56:54 appear to contain two balls of light close to my chest. I woke up about a minute before (because of noisy possums and kangaroos) and you can see me holding a torch which I have facing the ground, so that I can see where I’m going. I did everything I could to replicate these apparent balls of light. I shone my torch upwards in the tent the next night (which I never do anyway) and I studied the movement of the moon and the light it would cast. I set up the trail cam again to see if the moon could create the same conditions and I couldn’t replicate anything. These images remind me of some of the day and night time images I took many years ago during my experiments photographing (and largely disproving balls of light/orbs).
My feelings regarding these images, are not that I had photographed resident balls of light (Earth spirits or whatever you want to call them – light entities native to the cosmos) but that I had photographed an ET interaction of some sort. ETs can take the form of balls of light (the life force in an amorphous state) but I feel this was some sort of interactive scan that they had created for myself. I think they had left the tent but I can’t be sure. You’ll also notice some sort of mass on the left in the 4th image. I have no idea what it is but it looks tall and like it was standing at about the same distance away as the tent. I don’t know the truth about what I photographed, I just know that I haven’t photographed images like these on my trail cam (other apparent balls of light but not moving like these ones).
Between February 28th and March 7th I had to wear a 24 hour glucose chip/monitor which had been implanted in my belly. The chip/monitor allowed me to measure my adipose glucose levels for a whole week, so that we could determine whether any of the hormones secreted by my tumours are related include or are affecting insulin. On March 1st I went to bed in the tent, after seeing another craft blink in the night sky. I had done another long day of research and was emotionally and physically exhausted. Just as I lay my head down I saw another two blinks from a craft in the southern sky. Seeing the presence of a craft brought about the same sense of joy and of being understood and cared for. I went to sleep around 1:05 am. I woke and checked the time on the monitor and noted that it was exactly 4:00 am. I went outside for a pee (damned 1 kidney !) and turned back but felt strange. When I arrived in the tent, I checked the time on the monitor and it was 4:53 am. I was confused and began to wonder what happened. I then fell quickly back to sleep and woke at 7:42 am. In the morning I stood where I peed and almost instantly remembered seeing 2 Sar’won’dee standing near the tent calling my name and my walking over to them. Later I asked my son if he remembered anything or if he noticed I was there when he woke. he said that when he woke at 7 I was there. I checked the glucose monitor and was shocked to notice 3 periods of missed readings (readings occur every 5 minutes), covering the period from about 4:15 – 5 am, 5:45 – 6:30 am & 7 am – 7:30 am. I read the manual and could find no explanation for it, as it was next to me the whole time. During the whole time I had it implanted in me, it never missed another set of readings when it was near me. The meter itself can read up to 6 m away and while I was in the tent it was always within 1 meter of the chip. I spoke to the clinical nurse who put it in me yesterday and he had no explanation for why it didn’t take readings.
Later that day I went back over the experience and remembered several on ground and on board experiences with the Sar’won’dee and others but at this stage I’m still not clear on several aspects of the experience, so I’d rather not write about it for now. What I can say however, is that they both gave me an account of my health (updates on my tumours and upcoming treatments) and tried to explain the truth behind this dark crisis that has taken over my life.
The next day March 2nd, I again stayed up late researching the issues relating to my dark crisis. I went for a walk up the drive way about midnight and was again made aware of a craft in the night sky (this time just above the constellation of Orion, which was on it’s side). I went to bed in the tent soon after and fell asleep close to 1 am (this time my son slept inside). At a certain point in the middle of the night I felt the urge to urinate but ignored it and then at one point I saw from within my closed eyes a brilliant flash of white light and I thought ‘what the fuck ?’. I woke up immediately, opened my eyes and was completely lucid. Which in itself was very strange. I almost always wake up a little groggy. I noticed I was facing left and not right as I usually do, turned over to check the time on the glucose monitor and noted it was 4:16 am. I got up, went for a pee and had a quick walk around the front of the house, to check if my son had been out with a flash light and shone it in my face. But he was sound a asleep. (Later in the day, he confirmed that he had slept through the night.) I went back to bed and as soon as I put my head down, I notice 3 bright flashes from a craft immediately in front (SE) at about 45 degrees. I then lay awake for about an hour wondering what had happened and then fell back to sleep. Later in the day I went over the events of the night, wondered if it was a by product of a hypnagogic event (https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Hypnagogia) and decided that it was something else. I suspected that it was related to the apparent balls of light I had photographed on January 22nd.
Then, one final event occurred in this series of apparent ET contacts. On March 3rd I was travelling in my car with a friend to the town 60 km away. I had been very tired because of pain in my tumours earlier that day. I closed my eyes to rest but did not go to sleep. Then about 20 km out of town a brilliant white-yellow flash occurred in front of my closed eyes. It was a light, like the previous one that engulfed everything. I opened my eyes, noticed it was 3:48 pm on the car clock and asked my son and my friend, ‘did you see that ?’. My son was asleep and my said she hadn’t seen anything. Once again I considered that it might be a hypnagogic event but it didn’t feel like that. I’ve had those occur in the past (usually they occur as sounds) and this was different.
At this point I am not sure exactly what has been happening. I can say with relative certainty that I had 2 contact experiences on the nights of February 20th and March 2nd and I’ll tell you about those at a later date, when I have greater clarity about the totality of those experiences. But I’m not sure exactly what occurred on the other nights. I can tell you that I was aware of the presence of ET craft on all the nights I’ve mentioned and not once did I initiate contact in that time. Honestly, I haven’t had the energy for f2f ET contact or for sitting outside and making contact. I’ve been so over whelmed with this crisis, that I’ve parked everything else in my life.
What it feels like and what I know in part, is that all through this ‘dark night of the soul’ (is there a darker word than dark ?), I have felt the continuous support, understanding and presence of my ET friends – even when and especially when I doubted my experiences and that they they were even real. When on several occasions I doubted my own sanity, they made it clear ‘we exist and this is real’.
So, that’s where I’m at ! Who knows what the tide will bring, how this crisis will unfold or how my ET friends will continue to intervene. Somehow, all of this has been interwoven with the other strange events that have been taking place. Somehow, through what appears to be merging or shifting parallel lives/realities, the ETs have maintained a presence, as if to keep me from slipping over the edge into the abyss. An abyss from which I might never escape.
I now understand that when the Teal’hia and Sar’won’dee said to me when I was one with the light on January 19th, 2011, ‘This is to help you endure all the suffering that is to come’, exactly what they were hinting at. The death of my sister, the death of the lives and reality I thought I knew and the questioning of everything. Sometimes I feel blessed to have been thrown into the human condition, even when being human takes me to the edge of everything !
Pangloss/Voltaire/Leibniz is right, “we live in the best of all possible worlds” ! What matters most, is how we choose to see what happens and how we choose to respond. No more dancing around the abyss, for this little scorpion !
More information about Philip K Dick’s Exegesis :
More information of reality glitches/parallel worlds here :
http://in2worlds.net/glitches (Thanks Christopher McDill for the lead ! ;-))
PS. WordPress has been dumping text everywhere. Apologies if the text turned out a mess !
Hey folks, how’s life ???
Last month I had my latest Gallium 68 PET scan to find out exactly how my tumours are going. I made the video below on the day of my scan ! You can see the results in the pics below. The glowing or dark images are mostly tumours. My tumours have increased in size by about 55 % over the last 5 years. and now reach from my left adrenal gland to just above the Aortic bifurication. There are no tumours in any organs and several tumours seem to have dissapeared. Which is a good result from my perspective. But I still have tumours and they have grown and are now causing me considerable discomfort and secondary problems as a result of the hormones they secrete. The pressure on my Aorta is causing all kinds of circulation problems and is really very uncomfortable. I have to admit that I am a little tired of my tumours after almost 10 years.
Last week I visited my oncologist to begin planning my radiopeptide treatment and she surprised me by saying ‘I think you should have surgery’. I immediately had the most powerful visceral reaction that I’ve ever had and I told her so ! I then explained that I raised the issue with my former oncologist 5 years ago, who had said, ‘I don’t know anyone who would risk it !’. I showed her an old report that showed that my largest tumour is half wrapped around my descending Aorta and said that I thought the risk was too great and that I just didn’t want to have more surgery (as I’ve had 3 major surgeries and 2 minor surgeries already) as it has significantly effected my flexibility, mobility and quality of life. Anyway, we belted it around for a while and then she dragged in the Renal Surgeon, who said, ‘Yeah we could probably do that but there are significant risks’. Tell me about it ! Risks like dying, like injuring circulation to my legs or lower organs, like nicking a nerve and fucking up an organ ! So my oncologist was all for it and I was cold on the whole thing. The surgical team is going to discuss it this week but I will be saying no and plan on going ahead with radioactive Lutate Therapy.
I meet next week with my oncologist and an endocrinologist, to make a final decision and will probably meet with the Nuclear Medicine Radiologists the following week for final planning. That should mean treatment starts by mid February ! I’ll be so happy to see a start date !
I am otherwise much better than I was and am looking forward to taking my son down the coast for his 18th birthday and swimming in the ocean and snorkelling in some deep aquifers !
If you’d like to help with the fundraiser, you can do so here https://gogetfunding.com/a-tumour-called-freedom/ or via the tab on the right (which has smaller fees).
Thanks to everyone who has supported me thus far !
I have started recording the How to Make ET contact audio but how long it takes will depend on my appointments and when treatment starts. Most of my projects are moving along very slowly right now, pending feeling OK and the result of treatment.
For my part, it’s no expectation, whatever happens happens !
Take care friends,
Sometimes I blog when I feel bad and sometimes that’s useful and sometimes it’s not. Today I turned 47 and I had an argument with someone who matters to me and spent half the day feeling sick with tumour pain because of it. But the day isn’t over yet, there’s a lightening storm here and I am trying let everything go and to remember to allow myself to feel the way I wish to feel. On days like this, when for one reason or another I feel overwhelmed, I try to remember the many wonderful experiences I have had with my ET friends.
Some of you will know that one of the most profound experiences of my life was when on January 19th, 2011, the Teal’hia and Sar’won’dee took me on board a Sar’won’dee craft, to merge with the light. I’ve talked a little about that experience (see videos below) but what I didn’t tell you is that I know it has happened before in other lives and it profoundly affected how I functioned in those lives. Also in the period we think of as the after life, I was given something to remind me of where we all come from. In my darkest moments I try to remember what I have been given during these experiences. Today is one such day. And so I share the words that were shared with me, so that you too might understand and know that everything is OK. I can’t prove anything to you. I can only offer you my own experience.
One of the most powerful lessons of the mythical Buddha, is his lesson on the nature of things – all phenomena are impermanent. Meaning, everything is impermanent, everything will come and go. And what my ET friends have taught me is that while ever we experience separation, this is absolutely true. But there is a way in which something lasts forever. That way involves the complete dissolution of all individual identity and I experienced that as merging with the light. But because the light is everything, it is also possible to remember the individual self and to be everything at once. The light includes all that you have ever been and all that you will ever be and everything that has ever been and that will ever be.
Sometimes life is so hard, we wonder how we can go on. Today my son broke up with his girlfriend of 15 months and it has caused him great pain. The girl’s mother if giving him hell. My son has had an incredibly lonely life at school and his girlfriend became very important to him. But he compromised himself and created 2 different personas – one that was real and one that was what others wanted to see. Now after 15 months of pretending and several years of pretending, so that people would like him, he has said, ‘enough’ and he doesn’t want to feel torn in two any more. It’s been making him sick and put an immense strain on our relationship. And so as his dad, this has been incredibly hard for me to witness, especially since it seems like a repeat of many of my own experiences as a young man. Experiences that led to the development of my tumours. So I remind myself, this is what life is. Drama, pain, suffering, joy, love, desire, mistakes, choice and forgetting our true nature. Forgetting our true nature. Forgetting our true nature.
And that is what merging with the light was all about, remembering my true nature.
Rather than recreate the entire experience (which I’ll try to do when I write the book on my encounters), let me give you a few exchanges that took place on the Sar’won’dee craft that night. I’ll simply refer to the entities by their race name, rather than their individual names. Because what follows is mostly just dialogue, it doesn’t give you a sense of the full context or the time over which it took place. And I should remind you that in the light, there was no sense of time.
There will be many people in time who will dismiss my experience and others who will say that the ETs took me into a hologram and lied. But none of them were there or know me. And neither do they know the ETs I think of as friends and family.
ENTERING THE LIGHT
Sar’won’dee : We wish to show you something special, so that you know how much you are loved. We will take you to where God exists, to see what God is doing. We will take you beyond this world, to understand the creation of this world. Do you wish to see ? To experience God’s presence ?
Sar’won’dee : We wish to introduce you to this greater reality, so that you might know from where you came and why it is that we have created you. Do you wish to go ?
Teal’hia 1 : Look Bright, look around you. Can you feel the light ?
Me : Yes. I feel the light. I feel so loved.
Teal’hia 1 : This is the being that created you. This is what we are. We are the being who created you because we love you. We want you to live and know love. We are here to awaken you to that love Bright. Despite all that you have suffered in your life, we want you to know that you are loved. We are the God that you see in the light, that you feel in the light. It is the same God that is inside of you. He is here with love inside of you. Do you understand Bright ? Do you feel it ?
Me : Yes. Yes.
MERGING WITH THE LIGHT
Teal’hia 1 : Do you hear us, do you see us, do you feel us ? We are still here inside of you and beside you. You are now one with God. Do you feel God within you ? You are one with God and he is within you. Look Bright, we wish to show you what God is doing…this is our work.
Me : What is happening ? What is it that I’m seeing ?
Teal’hia 1: You feel it Bright, you know. You know what this is.
Teal;hia 1 : Yes, God is creating souls. This is our work. Yes Bright, we are creating souls. We are creating souls. They are called many things but they are the essence that is God. Do you understand ? Everything is God. God creates souls, we create souls. God brings consciousness to the entire universe. God is awake and we are helping him to know life in all it’s forms. This is our work. To love what we create. To love all that God creates. To nurture. To create with love. To help all beings know they are one with God and cannot be separated, even for a moment !
Teal’hia 2 : No Bright, you cannot, cannot be separated from God, no matter how much you suffer. God is always there loving you. You must trust in God’s love.
Teal’hia 2 : Feel Bright. Feel gods love inside of you – creating you. Feel that you are God. This is what it means to be GOD INCARNATE. You exist within God and he in you. You are not separate, always whole. Feel his creation in you. Do not perceive yourself simply as a human being whom God has forgotten. See all of this and know that you are within his creation and it is all within you. Feel it now. Do not speak.
I AM JUST FEELING. THERE IS LUMINOUS LIGHT EVERYWHERE AND I AM JUST FEELING. AND I AM THE LIGHT AND EVERYWHERE THE LIGHT IS WITHIN ME. I AM NOT JUST BRIGHT. I AM EVERYTHING THAT IS THE LIGHT. NO QUESTIONS, NO ANSWERS, JUST BEING THE LIGHT.
AFTER MERGING WITH THE LIGHT
Teal’hia 2 : Remember this Bright, for you will return here one day. One day when you are ready to return here. Do not forget what you have experienced. Do not forget what you have. It is always there inside of you. It is there inside of you. It can never be lost. Do not be afraid Bright, for THIS IS YOUR HOME. Everything else you experience is passing. THIS IS YOUR HOME.
Sar’won’dee : We shall return you now Bright. Do you wish to see anything or experience anything before we leave ?
Me : What happened to my body just now ?
Teal’hia 1 : We moved you from your body. Your body was safe.
Me : Where did we go ?
Sar’won’dee : Beyond the realm of the body, where the body cannot go.
Me : You mean as if I had died ?
Teal’hia 2 : Yes Bright. But you did not die.
Sar’won’dee : Remember the peace within Bright. Do not let confusion overwhelm you. When you return to this experience, trust in what you have seen and it will guide you. Let us leave now Bright.