Hey folks, how are y’all ? I’ve been a little out of sorts since having my 7th tumour treatment injection earlier in the week. Lots of hypoglycemia (glucose down as low as 2 some days !), severe stomach cramps, twitches, palpitations and diarrhoea. But I am otherwise well ! Things are usually worse around injection time but as the drug dissolves through the month, the side effects lighten up a little ! Here’s the needle that gets jabbed in my arse every month (below) ! Apparenty it’s worth $2,500 a shot ! Thank God most of it is subsidised ! Tell me that isn’t Big Pharma pulling a conjob ! I now have 7, 3 cm nodules from my jabs, that don’t seem to be going away ! One more year to see if it makes any real difference to my tumours ! Till then, you can call me Mr Lumpy Bum !
I’ve been working feverishly on trying to complete the Dude book. I’ve just about completed my 400 page poetry book – 1 poem to rewrite and then I can put all my energy into the Dude book ! You might recall that I decided to add some conversations to the original interview. I have had so many with Dude, that I didn’t know where to start. So for now I’ve narrowed it down to a small group of conversations. I may add more later. The problem with the conversations is that I have to transcribe them from my recordings and then type them up. So it takes a long time. I have 1 more question to complete the interview and then it’s complete. I’ve also added a section on Dude’s Maxims, Dude’s discovery of a strange world where perception influences reality in a very strange way, Dude’s leaf collection and lessons on the nature of the self . You can see the draft contents page here : https://app.box.com/s/3115vd67hxkuwvavdoepzmu53m5af288. This will probably be re-arranged a little but it’s mostly how the book will look.
You can read the section on How ETs Interact Through Internal Spaces here : https://app.box.com/s/x1b5vil0i6cjynkqkmnhp80vy3ce1sx7 and see a basic diagram that goes with this section here : https://app.box.com/s/u91y12qf4clb7xx4tr95r5irfqpizweq. There maybe some errors in dates and so on. I have to check a bunch of stuff against my journals. I’ve also found some typos I haven’t had the chance to fix. This is just a draft, so please don’t post it anywhere else. It may change a little but this is the raw first draft.
For each of the conversations, I’ve included a small section on the context of each conversation. The context of this particular conversation may come across a little ‘me-ish’, a little ‘self centered’ and that was not my intention. But I don’t think the conversation would make much sense unless I explained the history of how I came to be interested in this subject and working with internal spaces and internal contact.
The conversations are literally the conversations I had with Dude. They follow a simple conversational style, much like a Platonic/Socratic Dialogue style in simple form (https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Plato#Dialogues / https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Socratic_dialogue). When ever I talk with Dude I often ask things I think I understand, just so that I am completely sure of what Dude is saying. Conversely Dude often checks in to make sure I understand him.
If you read the final book, you may notice that some of the things that Dude says in later conversations are slightly different to what he has said in earlier conversations. And that’s because he constantly adjusts his language and ideas to where I’m at. We also tend to mirror each others language, as happens with many people in conversations. You’ll remember from the interview that Dude modifies his language to every person he speaks with. There are times when I’ve seen him speak very formally and politely to other people and then he acts like a complete scallywag when he speaks with me ! That’s just how he is. He’s a master of adaptation ! Which is one of the reasons he’s considered a great diplomat among his people and why he has the role he has working with humans on Earth !
When I started with this idea of interviewing Dude, I never envisioned a book. But then I quickly I realised it’s significance. It was only after I had finished 3/4 of the interview, that it occurred to me that some of the conversations that we’d had might make a useful addition. For a while I thought maybe I should put them in a separate book but I then realised that they actually complement many of the things that were raised in the interview.
I think the book will be about 200 pages in size 11 font. I’ll be using a similar format when I write-up the Anamika (Teal’hia) book.
This particular extract will go well with the things I’ve said about internal world contact and conjoined space. If you haven’t read or heard any of this information, this conversation may not make much sense.
I’m curious to see what you make of it !
I’ve yet to decide on how to publish the book. Whether I go solo or try to find a publisher. I’ll cross that bridge when I come to it. But if you know of any good publishing houses that cover this subject, feel free to let me know. I’m going to be very fastidious about who I publish it with, if I go down that path. No one that’s published anything on abduction or archons – that kind of crap !
PS. I have been wondering if I should change Dude’s public name. I have reasons I don’t want to use his real name that I can’t reveal (in too much detail). I’ve stuck with Dude because it was the first thing to pop into my head and because it’s convenient. It seems that perhaps some people think that the whole thing is a deliberate joke. Which of course it’s not ! I don’t know if anyone will take a book about an ET called Dude seriously. So what are your thoughts ? Dude or someone else ? In the novel I’m writing Dude assumes the name of Frank. As many of you know, I also use the name Anamika for my Teal’hia friend, as a cover name for her real name. But in writing about all the other ETs, I have and will in future, be using their real names. I have a soft spot for these two people and want to keep a little privacy for myself !
When I made a decision in 2000 to first start sharing my ET contact experiences, I did so reluctantly, with little sense of just how much hostile criticism I’d receive. At the time, I was going through an incredibly hard time after the birth of my son the year before. He was born with congenital heart disease and we were paranoid that we would lose him. I had also gone back to study social work and on my off days I was working at a piggery (where I reluctantly injected 5,000 pigs a day with growth hormonen – a job I hated !), just to keep my car on the road. Life was fucking hard and I was struggling to cope ! To top it off I was having otherworldly experiences that left me feeling very alone. There was no one apart from Rachel, who I could turn to to make sense of things. So I turned to the internet. But in the end all I found was hostility and judgement and so I turned my back on sharing until I started my last blog Otherworldly Encounters in 2009.
From 1991 – when I had my first conscious encounter, onwards, I had but one other person in my life to help make sense of what was happening when I/we experienced these encounters. I found little if any help on the internet ! The only real help of any value that I found, was the work of Dr John Mack – which highlighted that other experiencers were having similar struggles integrating their experiences. Later, conversations with Preston Dennett confirmed my suspicions about the types of people that ETs were in contact with. Overall I found that most of the material about ET contact on the internet, was a repetition of the same old garbage and cultural memes and it just didn’t resonate with what I was experiencing. Even to this day, that is still the case. It was only by talking to people like Preston, that it became clear to me that much of what passes as contact on the internet, isn’t what people are experiencing in actuality.
When I began sharing, I turned to the internet looking for help but after turning my back on the internet for 8 years, I returned, not to seek help but to share a different perspective on the phenomenon. I was still active on the internet from 2001-2008, I just didn’t share anything. Instead I did what I did in the early 90’s with the ARRNet (when monochrome green was hot and waiting a day for a reply was fast) – I read as much as I could online and tried to figure out just what it was that people believed they were experiencing. Over the course of that time, I came to see my own experiences completely differently to most people and to see the wider phenomenon in a completely different light. One which included an all pervasive psychological perspective that remained largely hidden from popular discourse. I also came to see that the general perceptions of ET contact were shaped by what I came to think of as Americanism (Whiteyitis or Californicated Thinking) – something to this day I detest and which most people appear to remain completely unaware of.
I thought sharing would be easier because the subject had been out in the public domain for almost another decade and I thought people were more open. But sharing wasn’t any easier ! In the first few months that I began sharing I received regular hate mail and nasty messages. I also received a couple of death threats (one of which came from a supposed serial killer who I challenged online, independent of the ET subject). When I posted my first videos, the hate mail and nasty messages intensified and it became very personal. One person, Robbert van den Broeke (a fraud if ever there was ! – http://www.robbertvandenbroeke.com/) even went so far as to wish that I would die of cancer, at a time when my tumours had returned with a vengeance and I was very sick (he claimed of course that someone had hijacked his email !). I had been a member of several forums and eventually I left Project Avalon Forum because the hostility was making me sicker. I was a fool to have ever joined that group but I did meet some very good people there !
In 2012 a small time Hollywood actor sent me a small HD video camera and encouraged me to make a How to Make Contact video series. Something I had already considered but wanted to do when I was ready and up to it. I mean my tumours had returned the year before and I still felt pretty shit ! As kind as this person’s gesture was, I wasn’t willing to be controlled by someone else. This person planned on scripting the project and I suspect editing the series and when I said ‘No, I’m not ready !’, he became very aggressive and nasty and demanded I send the camera back. I did so and he claimed he never received the camera back. I didn’t pay for tracking because I didn’t care to pay, I just wanted the camera and the controlling ego out of my life ! Fortunately that was the end of it and I haven’t heard from him since !
A few years ago a well known person in this field wrote to me under a pseudonym and offered to help my son and I financially and to visit, at a time when I was very sick and had my first fundraiser. Rachel and Dude had warned me what he was about to do, so I promptly ignored his emails. I appreciated the offer but I didn’t appreciate him pretending to be someone else. I felt like he wanted to know what I know. Now unlike a lot of people, I don’t hate this person. There are a lot of things he has said and done I don’t like but I also acknowledge that he has done a lot of good and created a lot of healthy dialogue about this subject. I would just have preferred that he was transparent. And I know he isn’t the only person or agency to have written to me under a pseudonym.
Since those first videos many people have attacked me for mumbling. Little do they know I’ve been critiqued for that since I was at university. Sometimes I do talk quietly and here’s why. In the late 80’s and early 90’s I listened to a lot of heavy metal and noise at high volume and I did some significant damage to my ear drums – so much so that today I can’t hear certain frequencies. When I speak, things seem louder than they actually are. I’ve done a lot of group work and public speaking and I actually have a very loud voice when I choose to project it (I always thought I’d like to have a go at one of those heavy metal growling world records). But out here, I live a very quiet life with my son and the trees and the birds. I have no reason to speak loud. So when I make a recording I often forget to speak louder because it sounds loud enough to my ears. It’s just one of those petty little things that pisses me off and prevents me from wanting to share more. These days I have a thicker skin but it’s still annoying !
In early 1994 I was a no one, invisible to everyone – except a covert group that was in contact with Dude (but I didn’t know that then). Then when I met Rachel in late 1994, I came under the scrutiny of the same group in England (via a well known tech company in Australia). They did their normal surveillance and screened my family. They discovered I had an uncle who was a former con, a paedophile and a drug addict and that my mother had OCD and had suffered post natal depression. I was deemed a weak link but of no significant threat. I never made a splash at school or university. I worked hard and remained out of sight. And yet I felt very much like the Julian Assanges of the world. But no one in 1994 knew that because I’d never done anything subversive. Then after I started my blog in 2009 I became aware of the online monitoring of all our electronic communications. Rachel had warned me about the extent of global surveillance (details of which go further than you’ve heard from Snowden so far) in late 94 but back then I was dubious about her claims. Since then, nearly everything she disclosed to me (the general outlines – she was careful not to breach her security oath) has come to light in the public domain. Dude further clarified many of the things she’d hinted at and the workings of The Architecture.
Up until 2012 I did little to protect my privacy. The only thing I did do from about 2005, is that when I wanted to research something potentially delicate, I did it in a public library (under a pseudonym if I had to) and in internet cafe’s, so that I wouldn’t leave any kind of personal trace. And it’s something I still do today to protect my privacy. I only ever research things from home, that I’m totally comfortable with others knowing. Everything else is done off site. I never talk about important things over the phone !
In 2007 I stopped using a mobile phone on a frequent basis and stopped carrying one around in 2012. Partly for health reasons and partly for privacy. I only ever use my son’s phone or an old phone, if I have to. I don’t carry one, travel with one, store anything of value or upload any information of importance on a mobile phone. I often travel a long way from home without a phone. Just like the good ole days, when we survived without them !
After I shared my first videos in 2012, I became aware of physical monitoring – when a number of individuals with connections to SAIC (https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Science_Applications_International_Corporation) came to investigate my January 19th 2011 experience in Halls Gap, Grampians. I was told they were coming before they arrived and saw evidence of their visit. One day I actually watched them assessing the sight. The monitoring continued after 2012 (but it may have been a different group) and I realised that the more I give out, the more they’re going to keep tabs on what I claim to experience. It was obvious that they want to know what is real and what is not. I knew from Rachel’s previous work that this is what certain agencies do. They investigate and monitor significant claims of ET contact. Some turn out to be bogus and others turn out to be real. The difference between the work done by the group that investigated my contacts and Rachel’s group was that her group used gifted psychics to bilocate back to potential events to confirm if they were real and the SAIC related group simply collected residual site data. Both groups were involved in surveillance and monitoring targeted individuals.
Later when we moved back to our farm, the surveillance and monitoring continued and as a result I set up a series of trail cameras around the property to collect evidence of subversive activity. I know they watch our home from time to time and have photos of our home and probably have satellite imagery but I don’t really care. Dude or one of the other ETs will always tell me when they’re coming.
I’ve come to accept that surveillance and monitoring are apart of life. What these groups don’t seem to realise is that it’s helped me to build a profile on them and to learn who they are – both electronically and psychically !
I’ve come to detest the surveillance and monitoring but I know that these people are only doing their job. It’s their controllers I hate. And I mean hate. I don’t back away from feeling that emotion. No love and light here ! I know the kinds of activities these people orchestrate and I utterly loath what they represent !
The thing I really dislike however are the crazies. The nutcases who pose a real threat to my life and the lives of people I care about. These people are often religious fundamentalists but not always. The fact that I suggest that space faring ETs are benevolent in nature and want to teach people how to make contact, seems to attract the worst kinds of human beings. The one’s who relish division and separation and who seem to see me as some kind of devil who needs to be eliminated. I’ve had run ins with a few of these kinds of people (even worked with a few) and I feel that the world is better off without them ! They pose a threat to anyone who comes in contact with them. And I have no time for them. That’s why I will never disclose where I live (at the time) and why begrudgingly, I must remain totally quiet about my experiences in my local community.
Before my sister died, I had told her a number of things about my ET contact experiences and I even asked Dude to visit her on her death bed – which he did. Two of my other sisters know a little about what I have experienced and my mother knows a little. But as yet I have been unable to approach the issue with my father. And that is incredibly difficult to sit with because it means that my father will never really know who I am. My experiences are such an integral part of my experience of life and it really hurts me that I have to partition myself around my father. My father maybe open to the subject. I don’t know. I know he saw UFOs on radar when he was flying in the RAAF and he has at times expressed an openness to the subject (while at other times expressed ridicule of the subject). But it is for example, a big leap from UFOs on radar to Dude and Anamika or to disclosing that the ETs showed me his daughters looming death years before it happened ! I’ve come close to opening up a few times but have been cautioned that now is not the time and in hindsight I think it would have been a mistake. But I would like to imagine that I can share some of my experiences with my father before one of us dies !
After 2012 when I began sharing my experiences on video, I decided I would try and tell the story of several of my encounters in full. But I quickly realised that it took more effort than I realised and it was exhausting. Add the dumb comments and the hostility and it just didn’t seem worth it. Which is why I have’t done much since. When my tumours returned in 2011, I thought I should share what I could – just in case I didn’t make it. Then as my health grew worse I realised that I was making things worse by sharing, so I pulled back. Now it’s all about harmony. I have to harmonise between giving and receiving. I can’t afford to share unless it’s worth it. I don’t have the energy to share when it makes me sicker. Staying alive is my number one priority. My son is my number two priority. Sharing my ET contact experiences, just doesn’t rate on a list of my priorities. So I share when I can. When I’m up to it and when I feel it’s worth it. I can’t share when it compromises my health or my life ! It isn’t that important ! But I’ve made lots of mistakes and been a fool for making myself so sick ! I have no one to blame but myself !
At different times, so many people have tried to gain something from me for nothing. What do I mean by that ? I mean they want something that I have, in return for nothing. For a long time I did that. I answered every email, every message, every comment and I responded to every attack- no matter how much it drained me or made me feel sick. I was a complete dickhead ! So these days I have to ask myself, ‘What’s in it for me ?’. Now that might seem awfully selfish but my life depends on it ! I have to figure out if every single interaction is worth it ! I have to determine what impact giving my energy away will have, what impact the things I share will have, what impact interacting with every person will have ! Which is why I no longer allow comments on my experience videos and I don’t allow every comment on the blog. And it’s also why from time to time I ignore people or I tell them to fuck off ! You wouldn’t believe the things people ask of me or how needy or dependent some people are ! And the worst people of all, are people with money ! I know there are a lot of good people with money who are regulars and I’m not talking about you. I’m taking about the people who write to me begging for help, who never offer anything in return – not even a thanks ! I just want to send those people an arsehole bomb !
I’ve said before that my time sharing my ET contact experiences is time limited. I can’t wait to disappear, to grow more trees and to publish my novels ! I like helping people and I really appreciate when other people understand what I’m trying to convey and learn to think about things for themselves. But sadly, that isn’t the majority. The majority want to be spoon fed and want something for nothing and want to take, take, take and never think for themselves. So all the work I do in relation to this subject, is for the very small minority who get it and who are open minded and open hearted enough to look beyond what’s popular. But it’s also for those who are yet unborn and for generations in the future who will look back and try to understand the small numbers of people who were in contact with ETs, who understood what it’s all about.
If I had my time again, I would remain invisible and keep everything out of the pubic domain. And that’s what I’d recommend to others in a similar position – stay invisible, cherish this as your own personal experience and share your experience only with people you trust in real life. Because at the end of the day, I’m not sure that it’s worth it overall. It isn’t worth the drama and the suffering ! But it is worth it in a host of small ways. The friendships and acquaintances are worth it ! Knowing that others are catching on to what I’m sharing makes it worth it ! Knowing that I’m helping a small number of people to understand themselves and the true nature of the self makes it worth it ! Knowing that I offer an antidote to the mass ignorance and stupidity makes it worth it ! Knowing that I can educate a small number of people about who the ETs are and what they’re like, is worth it !
I am however just one small man with a very small voice, that has something to say that is drowned out by the voice of the masses and the squeaky wheels. The only way that anything I do has any impact, is if others take what I have learned (or at least some of it) and apply it to their own lives and initiate their own ET contact and have their own relationships with beings from elsewhere. Then and only then, will anything I have ever had to say on the subject of ET contact, have any real and lasting value, to the betterment of humanity. Otherwise all this, is no more than dust in the wind.
Opening up about ET contact, is really a form of disclosure that forces bigotry to reveal itself. But it’s also about acknowledging our interconnectedness with all things. I for one have little patience for bigotry and all the time in the world for authentic connection !
I recently read Robbie Graham’s excellent book UFOs’ : Reframing the Debate https://www.amazon.com/UFOs-Reframing-Debate-Robbie-Graham/dp/1786770237 and felt the need to explore the theme of how we perceive contact with the “other”, while out walking. When I listened to this monologue I realised it was so full of wind, that I’d have to can it (which is something I’ve done to about 20 monologues). But given it’s a long one (1:45:50) I decided to keep it. So please be warned, it’s full of wind in places and there was nothing I could do to prevent it or edit it out.
In this walk I take up the issue of how humans perceive and make sense of contact with the other. We could call the other ET but it’s not always clear at the time or after, that that’s exactly what it is. I ask how conditioning, belief, perception and self awareness determine how we make sense of an experience. I also suggest that these things change across the human life cycle (brain freeze – I couldn’t articulate this clearly at the time : http://winstonwuttunee.blogspot.com.au/p/blog-page_2171.html) and suggest that every human being having an experience sits at a certain point in the developmental cycle and as a result interprets the experience in a certain way
The point I try to emphasise is that how we perceive and the level of self awareness that we have, both determine how we see the world and how we interpret our experiences.
I suggest that contact with the other is leading us to a greater understanding of the self and reality. This understanding is helping us to grow in a way that helps us to engage more fully with the intelligence of the other.
Hang in there !
Over the years many people have thrown the research of David Jacobs at me to ponder because they feel that I’m wrong about the ETs and that they are abducting us to fulfill some seedy agenda. I stand by my argument that the notion of abduction represents the perception of one’s experiences at the lower end of the developmental spectrum (https://etandi.wordpress.com/2014/12/21/how-the-perception-of-et-contact-changes-humans/) and not what is actually happening.
I’ve read several of David’s books and listened to many of his interviews. He has done a lot of good work, although I can say little about how he does his regression work or the people that he has worked with.
As far as I can tell he is one of those researchers who sees the small picture – how ETs appear to be to the person who feels powerless. His belief that ETs are infiltrating the planet, is at best naive and myopic and at worst just downright stupid and dangerous. Because David doesn’t seem to have had any contact experiences himself (and no history of contact experiences), he lacks the insight to truly understand the nature of these experiences. While he is right about a great deal of ET contact being clandestine (or subversive), he is completely wrong in his conclusions about what this means and why the ETs function the way that they do.
To play into his conclusions (and the conclusions of others like him), logically leads us to conclude that we live in a dystopian universe where living beings are caught in a battle between the forces of evil and good. Which, based on my own experiences with ETs, is a faulty and unhealthy way of thinking.
I suggest that those who are interested in the subject of ET contact (by whatever name you call it), examine cautiously the claims of people who believe that ETs have a dark agenda and are a threat to us. To take such claims at face value, is to play into ignorance and to lose sight of the larger picture of how different ET races interact with one another and how sentient life has evolved.
The things in this monologue were probably the hardest things I’ve ever spoken about publicly.
Today, I open up and share my thoughts about memory, uncertainty and doubt in the ET contact experience, looking at two of my own experiences 23 years apart. I explore how contact with beings from elsewhere shatters your experience of reality and talk about why I think most people who have contact, avoid talking about uncertainty and doubt and why these things are really critical to making sense of the experience. I post this monologue with some hesitation but do so because I belive that we need to be as honest and transparent as we can be, if we are to truly understand the experience of human-ET contact.
There is some repetitive noise in the early part of the recording due to my shoes squeaking and the squeaking on my iPod cover.
Enjoy ! 😉
A question for you !
An interactome is a concept that I am bastardizing from this concept in molecular biology (https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Interactome) to this : An interactome is any set of interactions that occur between two organism, in any given space of any size. So in the case of a Human-ET interactions, lets imagine that space to be something in which we humans can see an organism in the macroscale range. In other words between micro and very big. I am not talking about the interaction between your adrenal cells and a galaxy, I’m talking about the interaction between you, the body human you know and an ET and the body it knows.
So, describe the appearance of a potential Human-ET Interactome ?
If you can describe this in some way individually or collectively, then you’ll have figured out how to initiate ET contact and maintain a relationship with the ETs !
Good luck !
Well, here I am again, kind of normal, after what feels like two months distracted with other things. Thank you to everyone who continued to reach out to me and to people like Garbriele, Torstein and Darci, for your ongoing support for my fundraiser. It is as always, very much appreciated and helped in many different ways to make life a little easier.
Some of you will be aware that on January 19th this year I became aware of something very strange (it’s interesting to note on January 19th 2011 I had my merging with the light experience with the Teal’hia/Sar’won’dee), that led to making certain discoveries, that pretty much unravelled my life. It has without doubt, been the darkest period of my life and twice I came close to taking my life. Today I feel fantastic but the situation that I uncovered continues to exist and may take another year or more to make sense of and to resolve – in some way. The events that have come to my attention and have continued to occur during this time are very difficult to explain and include such things as a person from my past, the involvement of a covert group, the involvement with someone with an ET created ‘multiple personality disorder like’ personality, the merging of several apparent paralell worlds/lives, the appearance and dissapearance of several living beings (refer to my Lazarus Effect experiences, which i think I mention in the interviews with Erica Goetsch) and a small amount of ET contact/intervention. During this time I have also had guidance from my deceased guide’s Kanatek/Elly and from the ET friend you know as Dude. But at one point I even doubted Dude’s existence. I was so traumatised by what I had learned I began to doubt everything.
I felt so utterly perplexed and alone during this experience, that I was forced to question absolutely everything that I take to be real. I even wondered at one point if I had already died and was reliving my life again. Even though this was at odds with what I felt to be true. Because this experience involved another person and a covert group to some extent, I felt unable to talk about it with another living soul and very uneasy about reaching out to anyone through the internet or telephone because of the short and long term risks to the two of us (and a potential third person who maybe able to help us). I also feel very strongly that was has happened, would be just about impossible for any other person to comprehend, who has not already encountered and lived with a very high degree of strangeness and uncertainty. What I can say for sure, is that once you have been involved with ETs to a high degree or been involved with someone who has been involved with the HIGHEST level covert projects (that involve work with ETs), your life is never the same again and always prone to unexpected events !
At this point I think I should make a digression. One of my readers – Lisa, had previously asked me if I had read Philip K Dick’s Exegesis or any of the books in the series. Admittedly I had not and at the time Lisa mentioned it, I didn’t know much about Philip K Dick’s personal life. Now that I do and now that I know a little more abut Exegesis and the events surrounding it, I think I can safely say that what Dick experienced and what I have experienced have a few things in common – including high strangeness and confusion and some apparent shifts in reality. Suffice to say, I don’t know enough about Exegesis or Dick to make any further comparison but it seems that what Dick went through is similar to what I have been going through – as a process that is indicative of a major transpersonal crisis and transformation.
The truth is that I didn’t think my life could really get any stranger or any more uncomfortable but it has. I’m OK now but it has been very, very hard. This event has been so overpowering, that it overshadowed my own health problems (after almost a decade, I start my tumour treatment next week) and the death of my sister Susy on February 18th this year. It will take a long time to find answers and have some resolution. The hardest part is that it was totally unanticipated and arrived in the middle of two other major crisis. At one point I was so gutted, I nearly decided to give up on healing and walk away from ever having any treatment ! Come what may ! A month of almost no sleep totally screwed with my head and left me totally obsessed with nothing but finding answers to this one thing ! Now I’m sleeping normally, I feel much better ! Life goes on and my desire to live has returned.
For much of the last 6 weeks I spent 12 hours a day trying to dig up circumstantial evidence online and piecing together evidence from the past. Day after day I was confronted with something I hadn’t seen coming. Things that I’d once felt and suspected but pushed away, were verified. But what they mean, I have no idea. The real crisis underscoring this entire set of events, is that they can be interpreted in several possible ways and what seems most likely is that several different causes have been happening at once. the truths that I have discovered have been so painful, that I have been forced to examine and re-evaluate my entire life.
The positive side of that, is that I’m much more aware than I was of the reality surrounding me and much more aware of who I am than I was before. I’ve also realised first hand that the the people and reality that I thought I understood, are much stranger than I ever thought they were. Ultimately I realise now that I know so much less than I thought I knew about the nature of reality.
During the same time that I came close to taking my life, I began to have uninitiated contact with several groups of ETs. It seemed as if they were well aware of my crisis and how close I was to taking my life.
On February 18th this year I went to sleep in the tent with my son (something we’ve done on the hot nights during summer) and saw a craft blink in the sky above my head, just after my head touched the pillow. I felt an immediate sense of ‘they know’. Then in the early hours of February 20th (my sister died 2 days before) something took place, that I was unaware of until later that day, as I drove to my oncology appointments in the city. My left thigh had begun to hurt in a specific location 16-18 cm above the patella and I had images that seemed to be flashing into my awareness. later in the day, in the middle of my appointments, I went to the toilet and had a look at my leg. I noticed a small white circle, much the same as when the Sar’won’dee came to visit me in my backyard in Port Fairy in November 2009 and took a core sample through my knee joint. When I arrived home later that day, I tried to find the mark but it seemed to have dissapeared. I don’t know if it actually dissapeared or could only be seen under fluorescent light. My leg hurt for 3 days and then the pain seemed to go for 2 days and then returned as a lower level pain for another 4 days. It has since subsided but occasionally I can feel where it was. When I returned home on the day of the 20th, I went searching though my house for any object at the same height, that I could have collided with to hurt myself. But the only objects were below knee level. I did everything to try and find a rational explanation for the pain but could come up with nothing. Several times when I lay down to revisit that night, I saw the same images with the Sar’won’dee but I was too worn out and drained from the other crisis to go through the event fully. I still haven’t done that because I’ve been so tired with all the visits to hospital and the ongoing crisis. I think I can safely say however that I had another visit/sample taken/health check the day I was heading to hospital in relation to my tumours. Some of you may recall the visit of the 4th January last year, prior to my having a CT scan of my tumours. On several occasions it seems, my ET friends have visited just prior to my having check ups in relation to my tumours and on several of these given me an update on my health, that was later confirmed with the scans I had taken.
Then on the February the 22nd my son and I went to sleep in the tent. Prior to going to sleep just after midnight, a craft flashed at me twice and again I felt the sense ‘they know’ and instantly went to bed feeling better, after a long day of researching. Not only did I feel better, I felt a great sense of joy and of being understood and cared for. All of my doubts instantly melted away and I had a deep satisfying sleep ! Prior to going to sleep I set up one of our trail cams to see if there were any more feral cats hanging around the house (which is something I do quite often). In the morning when I checked the camera, not only was their evidence of a cat but evidence of something else that appeared to come and visit me. I was sleeping on the left (in the pics) and my son on the right. The first 3 images appear to contain a ball of light at 3:44:44, the second set of images an hour later appear to contain a ball of light at 4:53:36 and the final two images of me going inside at 4:56:54 appear to contain two balls of light close to my chest. I woke up about a minute before (because of noisy possums and kangaroos) and you can see me holding a torch which I have facing the ground, so that I can see where I’m going. I did everything I could to replicate these apparent balls of light. I shone my torch upwards in the tent the next night (which I never do anyway) and I studied the movement of the moon and the light it would cast. I set up the trail cam again to see if the moon could create the same conditions and I couldn’t replicate anything. These images remind me of some of the day and night time images I took many years ago during my experiments photographing (and largely disproving balls of light/orbs).
My feelings regarding these images, are not that I had photographed resident balls of light (Earth spirits or whatever you want to call them – light entities native to the cosmos) but that I had photographed an ET interaction of some sort. ETs can take the form of balls of light (the life force in an amorphous state) but I feel this was some sort of interactive scan that they had created for myself. I think they had left the tent but I can’t be sure. You’ll also notice some sort of mass on the left in the 4th image. I have no idea what it is but it looks tall and like it was standing at about the same distance away as the tent. I don’t know the truth about what I photographed, I just know that I haven’t photographed images like these on my trail cam (other apparent balls of light but not moving like these ones).
Between February 28th and March 7th I had to wear a 24 hour glucose chip/monitor which had been implanted in my belly. The chip/monitor allowed me to measure my adipose glucose levels for a whole week, so that we could determine whether any of the hormones secreted by my tumours are related include or are affecting insulin. On March 1st I went to bed in the tent, after seeing another craft blink in the night sky. I had done another long day of research and was emotionally and physically exhausted. Just as I lay my head down I saw another two blinks from a craft in the southern sky. Seeing the presence of a craft brought about the same sense of joy and of being understood and cared for. I went to sleep around 1:05 am. I woke and checked the time on the monitor and noted that it was exactly 4:00 am. I went outside for a pee (damned 1 kidney !) and turned back but felt strange. When I arrived in the tent, I checked the time on the monitor and it was 4:53 am. I was confused and began to wonder what happened. I then fell quickly back to sleep and woke at 7:42 am. In the morning I stood where I peed and almost instantly remembered seeing 2 Sar’won’dee standing near the tent calling my name and my walking over to them. Later I asked my son if he remembered anything or if he noticed I was there when he woke. he said that when he woke at 7 I was there. I checked the glucose monitor and was shocked to notice 3 periods of missed readings (readings occur every 5 minutes), covering the period from about 4:15 – 5 am, 5:45 – 6:30 am & 7 am – 7:30 am. I read the manual and could find no explanation for it, as it was next to me the whole time. During the whole time I had it implanted in me, it never missed another set of readings when it was near me. The meter itself can read up to 6 m away and while I was in the tent it was always within 1 meter of the chip. I spoke to the clinical nurse who put it in me yesterday and he had no explanation for why it didn’t take readings.
Later that day I went back over the experience and remembered several on ground and on board experiences with the Sar’won’dee and others but at this stage I’m still not clear on several aspects of the experience, so I’d rather not write about it for now. What I can say however, is that they both gave me an account of my health (updates on my tumours and upcoming treatments) and tried to explain the truth behind this dark crisis that has taken over my life.
The next day March 2nd, I again stayed up late researching the issues relating to my dark crisis. I went for a walk up the drive way about midnight and was again made aware of a craft in the night sky (this time just above the constellation of Orion, which was on it’s side). I went to bed in the tent soon after and fell asleep close to 1 am (this time my son slept inside). At a certain point in the middle of the night I felt the urge to urinate but ignored it and then at one point I saw from within my closed eyes a brilliant flash of white light and I thought ‘what the fuck ?’. I woke up immediately, opened my eyes and was completely lucid. Which in itself was very strange. I almost always wake up a little groggy. I noticed I was facing left and not right as I usually do, turned over to check the time on the glucose monitor and noted it was 4:16 am. I got up, went for a pee and had a quick walk around the front of the house, to check if my son had been out with a flash light and shone it in my face. But he was sound a asleep. (Later in the day, he confirmed that he had slept through the night.) I went back to bed and as soon as I put my head down, I notice 3 bright flashes from a craft immediately in front (SE) at about 45 degrees. I then lay awake for about an hour wondering what had happened and then fell back to sleep. Later in the day I went over the events of the night, wondered if it was a by product of a hypnagogic event (https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Hypnagogia) and decided that it was something else. I suspected that it was related to the apparent balls of light I had photographed on January 22nd.
Then, one final event occurred in this series of apparent ET contacts. On March 3rd I was travelling in my car with a friend to the town 60 km away. I had been very tired because of pain in my tumours earlier that day. I closed my eyes to rest but did not go to sleep. Then about 20 km out of town a brilliant white-yellow flash occurred in front of my closed eyes. It was a light, like the previous one that engulfed everything. I opened my eyes, noticed it was 3:48 pm on the car clock and asked my son and my friend, ‘did you see that ?’. My son was asleep and my said she hadn’t seen anything. Once again I considered that it might be a hypnagogic event but it didn’t feel like that. I’ve had those occur in the past (usually they occur as sounds) and this was different.
At this point I am not sure exactly what has been happening. I can say with relative certainty that I had 2 contact experiences on the nights of February 20th and March 2nd and I’ll tell you about those at a later date, when I have greater clarity about the totality of those experiences. But I’m not sure exactly what occurred on the other nights. I can tell you that I was aware of the presence of ET craft on all the nights I’ve mentioned and not once did I initiate contact in that time. Honestly, I haven’t had the energy for f2f ET contact or for sitting outside and making contact. I’ve been so over whelmed with this crisis, that I’ve parked everything else in my life.
What it feels like and what I know in part, is that all through this ‘dark night of the soul’ (is there a darker word than dark ?), I have felt the continuous support, understanding and presence of my ET friends – even when and especially when I doubted my experiences and that they they were even real. When on several occasions I doubted my own sanity, they made it clear ‘we exist and this is real’.
So, that’s where I’m at ! Who knows what the tide will bring, how this crisis will unfold or how my ET friends will continue to intervene. Somehow, all of this has been interwoven with the other strange events that have been taking place. Somehow, through what appears to be merging or shifting parallel lives/realities, the ETs have maintained a presence, as if to keep me from slipping over the edge into the abyss. An abyss from which I might never escape.
I now understand that when the Teal’hia and Sar’won’dee said to me when I was one with the light on January 19th, 2011, ‘This is to help you endure all the suffering that is to come’, exactly what they were hinting at. The death of my sister, the death of the lives and reality I thought I knew and the questioning of everything. Sometimes I feel blessed to have been thrown into the human condition, even when being human takes me to the edge of everything !
Pangloss/Voltaire/Leibniz is right, “we live in the best of all possible worlds” ! What matters most, is how we choose to see what happens and how we choose to respond. No more dancing around the abyss, for this little scorpion !
More information about Philip K Dick’s Exegesis :
More information of reality glitches/parallel worlds here :
http://in2worlds.net/glitches (Thanks Christopher McDill for the lead ! ;-))
PS. WordPress has been dumping text everywhere. Apologies if the text turned out a mess !
Hey folks, how’s life ???
Last month I had my latest Gallium 68 PET scan to find out exactly how my tumours are going. I made the video below on the day of my scan ! You can see the results in the pics below. The glowing or dark images are mostly tumours. My tumours have increased in size by about 55 % over the last 5 years. and now reach from my left adrenal gland to just above the Aortic bifurication. There are no tumours in any organs and several tumours seem to have dissapeared. Which is a good result from my perspective. But I still have tumours and they have grown and are now causing me considerable discomfort and secondary problems as a result of the hormones they secrete. The pressure on my Aorta is causing all kinds of circulation problems and is really very uncomfortable. I have to admit that I am a little tired of my tumours after almost 10 years.
Last week I visited my oncologist to begin planning my radiopeptide treatment and she surprised me by saying ‘I think you should have surgery’. I immediately had the most powerful visceral reaction that I’ve ever had and I told her so ! I then explained that I raised the issue with my former oncologist 5 years ago, who had said, ‘I don’t know anyone who would risk it !’. I showed her an old report that showed that my largest tumour is half wrapped around my descending Aorta and said that I thought the risk was too great and that I just didn’t want to have more surgery (as I’ve had 3 major surgeries and 2 minor surgeries already) as it has significantly effected my flexibility, mobility and quality of life. Anyway, we belted it around for a while and then she dragged in the Renal Surgeon, who said, ‘Yeah we could probably do that but there are significant risks’. Tell me about it ! Risks like dying, like injuring circulation to my legs or lower organs, like nicking a nerve and fucking up an organ ! So my oncologist was all for it and I was cold on the whole thing. The surgical team is going to discuss it this week but I will be saying no and plan on going ahead with radioactive Lutate Therapy.
I meet next week with my oncologist and an endocrinologist, to make a final decision and will probably meet with the Nuclear Medicine Radiologists the following week for final planning. That should mean treatment starts by mid February ! I’ll be so happy to see a start date !
I am otherwise much better than I was and am looking forward to taking my son down the coast for his 18th birthday and swimming in the ocean and snorkelling in some deep aquifers !
If you’d like to help with the fundraiser, you can do so here https://gogetfunding.com/a-tumour-called-freedom/ or via the tab on the right (which has smaller fees).
Thanks to everyone who has supported me thus far !
I have started recording the How to Make ET contact audio but how long it takes will depend on my appointments and when treatment starts. Most of my projects are moving along very slowly right now, pending feeling OK and the result of treatment.
For my part, it’s no expectation, whatever happens happens !
Take care friends,
Sometimes I blog when I feel bad and sometimes that’s useful and sometimes it’s not. Today I turned 47 and I had an argument with someone who matters to me and spent half the day feeling sick with tumour pain because of it. But the day isn’t over yet, there’s a lightening storm here and I am trying let everything go and to remember to allow myself to feel the way I wish to feel. On days like this, when for one reason or another I feel overwhelmed, I try to remember the many wonderful experiences I have had with my ET friends.
Some of you will know that one of the most profound experiences of my life was when on January 19th, 2011, the Teal’hia and Sar’won’dee took me on board a Sar’won’dee craft, to merge with the light. I’ve talked a little about that experience (see videos below) but what I didn’t tell you is that I know it has happened before in other lives and it profoundly affected how I functioned in those lives. Also in the period we think of as the after life, I was given something to remind me of where we all come from. In my darkest moments I try to remember what I have been given during these experiences. Today is one such day. And so I share the words that were shared with me, so that you too might understand and know that everything is OK. I can’t prove anything to you. I can only offer you my own experience.
One of the most powerful lessons of the mythical Buddha, is his lesson on the nature of things – all phenomena are impermanent. Meaning, everything is impermanent, everything will come and go. And what my ET friends have taught me is that while ever we experience separation, this is absolutely true. But there is a way in which something lasts forever. That way involves the complete dissolution of all individual identity and I experienced that as merging with the light. But because the light is everything, it is also possible to remember the individual self and to be everything at once. The light includes all that you have ever been and all that you will ever be and everything that has ever been and that will ever be.
Sometimes life is so hard, we wonder how we can go on. Today my son broke up with his girlfriend of 15 months and it has caused him great pain. The girl’s mother if giving him hell. My son has had an incredibly lonely life at school and his girlfriend became very important to him. But he compromised himself and created 2 different personas – one that was real and one that was what others wanted to see. Now after 15 months of pretending and several years of pretending, so that people would like him, he has said, ‘enough’ and he doesn’t want to feel torn in two any more. It’s been making him sick and put an immense strain on our relationship. And so as his dad, this has been incredibly hard for me to witness, especially since it seems like a repeat of many of my own experiences as a young man. Experiences that led to the development of my tumours. So I remind myself, this is what life is. Drama, pain, suffering, joy, love, desire, mistakes, choice and forgetting our true nature. Forgetting our true nature. Forgetting our true nature.
And that is what merging with the light was all about, remembering my true nature.
Rather than recreate the entire experience (which I’ll try to do when I write the book on my encounters), let me give you a few exchanges that took place on the Sar’won’dee craft that night. I’ll simply refer to the entities by their race name, rather than their individual names. Because what follows is mostly just dialogue, it doesn’t give you a sense of the full context or the time over which it took place. And I should remind you that in the light, there was no sense of time.
There will be many people in time who will dismiss my experience and others who will say that the ETs took me into a hologram and lied. But none of them were there or know me. And neither do they know the ETs I think of as friends and family.
ENTERING THE LIGHT
Sar’won’dee : We wish to show you something special, so that you know how much you are loved. We will take you to where God exists, to see what God is doing. We will take you beyond this world, to understand the creation of this world. Do you wish to see ? To experience God’s presence ?
Sar’won’dee : We wish to introduce you to this greater reality, so that you might know from where you came and why it is that we have created you. Do you wish to go ?
Teal’hia 1 : Look Bright, look around you. Can you feel the light ?
Me : Yes. I feel the light. I feel so loved.
Teal’hia 1 : This is the being that created you. This is what we are. We are the being who created you because we love you. We want you to live and know love. We are here to awaken you to that love Bright. Despite all that you have suffered in your life, we want you to know that you are loved. We are the God that you see in the light, that you feel in the light. It is the same God that is inside of you. He is here with love inside of you. Do you understand Bright ? Do you feel it ?
Me : Yes. Yes.
MERGING WITH THE LIGHT
Teal’hia 1 : Do you hear us, do you see us, do you feel us ? We are still here inside of you and beside you. You are now one with God. Do you feel God within you ? You are one with God and he is within you. Look Bright, we wish to show you what God is doing…this is our work.
Me : What is happening ? What is it that I’m seeing ?
Teal’hia 1: You feel it Bright, you know. You know what this is.
Teal;hia 1 : Yes, God is creating souls. This is our work. Yes Bright, we are creating souls. We are creating souls. They are called many things but they are the essence that is God. Do you understand ? Everything is God. God creates souls, we create souls. God brings consciousness to the entire universe. God is awake and we are helping him to know life in all it’s forms. This is our work. To love what we create. To love all that God creates. To nurture. To create with love. To help all beings know they are one with God and cannot be separated, even for a moment !
Teal’hia 2 : No Bright, you cannot, cannot be separated from God, no matter how much you suffer. God is always there loving you. You must trust in God’s love.
Teal’hia 2 : Feel Bright. Feel gods love inside of you – creating you. Feel that you are God. This is what it means to be GOD INCARNATE. You exist within God and he in you. You are not separate, always whole. Feel his creation in you. Do not perceive yourself simply as a human being whom God has forgotten. See all of this and know that you are within his creation and it is all within you. Feel it now. Do not speak.
I AM JUST FEELING. THERE IS LUMINOUS LIGHT EVERYWHERE AND I AM JUST FEELING. AND I AM THE LIGHT AND EVERYWHERE THE LIGHT IS WITHIN ME. I AM NOT JUST BRIGHT. I AM EVERYTHING THAT IS THE LIGHT. NO QUESTIONS, NO ANSWERS, JUST BEING THE LIGHT.
AFTER MERGING WITH THE LIGHT
Teal’hia 2 : Remember this Bright, for you will return here one day. One day when you are ready to return here. Do not forget what you have experienced. Do not forget what you have. It is always there inside of you. It is there inside of you. It can never be lost. Do not be afraid Bright, for THIS IS YOUR HOME. Everything else you experience is passing. THIS IS YOUR HOME.
Sar’won’dee : We shall return you now Bright. Do you wish to see anything or experience anything before we leave ?
Me : What happened to my body just now ?
Teal’hia 1 : We moved you from your body. Your body was safe.
Me : Where did we go ?
Sar’won’dee : Beyond the realm of the body, where the body cannot go.
Me : You mean as if I had died ?
Teal’hia 2 : Yes Bright. But you did not die.
Sar’won’dee : Remember the peace within Bright. Do not let confusion overwhelm you. When you return to this experience, trust in what you have seen and it will guide you. Let us leave now Bright.
This will just be a brief post, as I have to limit my time on here, since my tumours have been giving me hell all week and I don’t want to make things any worse !
I thought I’d just introduce a topic I have been thinking about for many years – ET interactions with children. Let me start by saying that I’m not going to say anything about hybrids or hybrid children – now or ever because it’s all rubbish ! I’ve spoken about that before so that’s all I’ll say for now !
Lots of children on Earth are being visited by our ET friends. The reasons for these visits and their subsequent interactions are many and varied. So I thought that rather than going into the details of all the possible reasons I’d focus on a small selection of reasons and how such interactions might unfold. The primary reasons I believe that the ETs interact with children are :
- They are continuing relationships that have been developed in other lives.
- They are following through with things that were discussed with individuals, in what we would consider our afterlife.
- They are working with children who have the capacity to influence the greater good (see Dude’s response to questions 7 & 9 in the Dude Interview).
- They wish to help certain children to develop certain skill sets, abilities, temperaments, interests, ideas, ideologies and ways of functioning, that they will carry into adulthood. Such developments can then be used to help the greater good.
- Children have less conditioning than adults and are more open to contact and building relationships with ETs.
- They value life long friendships with humans.
The kinds of things that you might consider to be part of a picture that represents the ‘greater good’, include – relationships with ETs, caring for the Earth, caring for other species, caring for fellow humans, interspecies communication, harmonious ideologies and technologies, harmonious relationships with humans, other species and Earth itself, justice and equality for all beings, improved health and longevity and greater awareness and experiential knowledge of one’s true nature. Pretty simple stuff really but all the things that we humans have failed to achieve collectively !
So you might wonder what ET interactions with children look like ! To answer that, it’s probably best that I use myself as an example. My situation may not be typical in some ways but in other ways it is very typical. First I should tell you that my knowledge of my childhood contact comes from several sources. First, from my recollections of strange events. Second, from going back into my memories, using a deep form of relaxation and working with the body. This method has some similarity to hypnosis but is not the same. I’ll share this method in the ET Contact Audio Series. Third, by correlating certain things I remember with what my parents remember (my mother in particular). Fourth, through discussions with various ETs as an adult (including Dude and Anamika). Fifth, by having my ex wife use her bilocation skills and go back and verify things for me. Of course none of that means anything to you and you’re welcome to think it’s all crap ! But its my own truth !
My first contact occured when I was inutero and of course I have no memory of that. The next contact occured when I was 4 months old and I remember seeing several Teal’hia (including Anamika) standing around my cot and talking to me and looking into my eyes. Then on 18th June 1973, when I was 3 years and 8 months old, I had a visit from 3 ETs – including a female Muajra (Dude’s race), a male Nalpnto (Hoofy Foot) and Anamika (Teal’hia). They met me in my bedroom on a cold winters night. They asked me to put my slippers on and then they took me on board a craft, where I was given a health check and taken into a circular room and shown a series of projections related to the future (these included my sisters illness and how it would unfold, my own illness, the birth of my son and my son’s life, my friendship with Dude and some of the journeys he was to take me on, my life as a writer and some of the things I would write about. Dude told me recently that he was working with the female and she knew that he had a relationship with the woman who would become my partner (now ex). They were working together to ensure that we met one another and would have a relationship, among other things. He also told me that he went back to the this contact event, to understand what I was shown and how I reacted.
There were other interactions after that and several took place when I was 10/11 years old and my sister and I lived with our grandparents in western NSW (near the town of Meadow Flat) in a remote location. I would regularly go out on long walks collecting snakes and lizards and often be out longer than I thought I was. Sometimes the ETs would also visit me when we were asleep at night. On at least one occasion I believe I was taken off a 747 while travelling with my sister back to Hong Kong to visit our father. Fast forward to 1989, I was 20 and had my first conscious encounter with a being from the Zeta Reticuli star system.
Rather than going into the nitty gritty of every single experience, I’d like to focus on the third experience because I think it will give you a good sense of what takes place when ETs interact with children and why certain things happen.
Often when the ETs come, no matter what age you are, they give you a health check. This will usually involve lying on a table of some sort and having the table examine you and the ETs examine you with their hands and/or head (one race I know literally puts their head just above your body and seem to scan you energetically) or an instrument. During this particular visit on the night on 18th June 1973, I only had a brief check up. On this night I was introduced to two new races – The Nalpnto and the Muajra. From that point onwards I would regularly meet these two races and along with the Teal’hia, they seem to have played a significant role in monitoring and influencing my emotional, physical and spiritual well being. During the remainder of my visit onboard, I spent the majority of my time watching a projection about my own future and the future of people who would be part of my life. By now you maybe wondering what I wondered for many years, “Why the hell would you show a 3 1/2 year old his own future and some things, which are down right terrible ?”. Well, the reason is simple and not so simple !
My first memories of that night began to come through in my early twenties, when I began to feel protective about my little sister in a way that I hadn’t before. This sense of needing to protect here continued in different forms, very strongly up until 19th January 2011, when for the second time I was shown what would happen to my sister. Then they continued in a different form, up until 20th September 2014, when Dude took me to my sisters actual future. Meanwhile my memories of that 3rd visit continued to come back in dribs and drabs – in relation to certain things that were happening in my life. It wasn’t until my son was born that the contact event of 18th June 1973 started to make more sense but I still didn’t understand it.
So coming back to why. I kind of worked out the reasons why I was shown the things that would happen, by piecing together what had happened up until the point when my sister was diagnosed with her brain tumours last February. I understood somethings but not everything. Now I think I understand everything but I am not totally sure. I had my own ideas but I wanted to know more and so I asked Dude. When I asked him “Why show a little boy ?”, he said, “Remember we can take things away – the awareness of each event, so that it’s like receiving something new, each event.”. By that he meant this. The ETs showed the little boy a good event, explained it, then took it away from conscious awareness; then they showed him a bad event, explained it, then took it away from conscious awareness; until such time as each event had been shown, explained and then taken away and then the entire visit erased from conscious memory. But some part of the little boy’s psyche remembered everything and over time little things trickled into conscious memory or influenced certain choices. So the little boy who learned about his little sisters looming terminal illness and his own potentially fatal illness, was shown what would come, had it explained by 3 very loving caring beings and had the memory of tha entire event taken away until it needed to be remembered or some aspect of it remembered. In that way he was able to go on with his life without being immobilized or traumatized. And that is how the ETs mostly work with our memories. Often, as I’ve said countless times, we get sick and lose consciousness in the presence of the ETs. For some reason the ETs allowed me to remain conscious throughout the entire experience that night. Perhaps it was so they could show me the events of my future but perhaps it was so that one day I would remember everything they showed me. I don’t know for sure. But maybe it was both !
In relation to what they showed me. Dude said that the reason they showed me was because they wanted me to be prepared in every possible way for what was to come. The visit was a catalyst for my preparation. Why they wanted to prepare me and not other people, I can’t say. I have some ideas about that but I’d rather keep them to myself.
After the visit, I wouldn’t consciously remember what I’d seen because it would be too painful and I wouldn’t understand it. Regarding my sister, I developed a sense that she would be in big trouble if she didn’t make good choices and later I saw how her monkey mind was causing more trouble. I tried very hard to influence her choices but to no avail ! Because at an unconscious level I knew about my own looming illness, I became fascinated by cancer, tumour development and disease. I studied science and spent a good part of my free time exploring hypothetical cures for cancer. Later I was fascinated with a broader holistic view of health and disease, in particular how relationships and emotions effect the development of illnesses. It was as if I knew what was coming. Since the age of about 12 I was also fascinated by sickness and death. I could see that sickness and death were everywhere. I knew that people die and I was curious about what happens to the body and to the spirit after death. Sure, these are natural preoccupations for many people but for me they were obsessive and driven by a deep urge to understand. Almost as if by understanding I could be better prepared.
So when I look at the night of 18th June 1973 now and when I understand that some ETs have had relationship with me that spans my entire existence (such as the Teal’hia nd Sar’Won’Dee – see my Merging with the Light experience); it seems clear to me that preparing me for what was to come, the ETs were helping me to develop all the skills and abilities that I needed to pass through the difficulties in my life and most importantly, to be who I am today and who I will be tomorrow. If it wasn’t for the visit that night – this blog would probably not exist; I would never have attempted to initiate ET contact; I would have no awareness of Dude or have developed a relationship with him; I may not have endured all the difficulties that surrounded my son’s birth when he was diagnosed with congenital heart disease; I would be devastated by my sisters illness (while I’m upset, I’m not devastated); and I probably would never have picked up a pen and started writing as I sat listening to U2’s Joshua Tree in 1987 – a choice that has changed my entire life !
So the ETs interact with children because they care. By choosing to make contact with them and interact with them over the course of childhood, they help children to develop in ways that they otherwise would not develop and they prepare them for many of the challenges that lay ahead in life. By doing so, they also form invaluable friendships that mean as much to the ETs as they do humans. You may remember that Dude taught Rachel to bilocate and that profoundly influenced certain future human events but it also bonded their relationship, as they zipped in and out of places all around the globe, spanning several centuries. You may also remember the friendships that Dude had with the lady in western Sweden long ago and the man from the island near Mauritius many centuries ago – both of whom he first visited as children. Or the friendship he had with Ascanio Sobrero in Italy ! Dude also had many other relationships with human children that have come and gone over the millennia that he has been here.
I think there are certain patterns in how ETs interact with children. If could simplify things, I’d say the following things are typical :
- ETs influence the development of children inutero.
- ETs have ongoing relationships with children that span other lives.
- ETs work with children to influence who they become as adults for the great good.
- ETs form friendships with children, that are sometimes forgotten when the children grow older.
- ETs visit children regularly and check up on their health and development.
- ETs foster the development of certain kinds of people.
- Children will be visited at least 2-3 times as children and sometimes much more frequently. Some children will have ET visits that are daily for long periods of time but these kinds of visits will diminish markedly over time.
- Children who are taken on board craft, are routinely given a health check, taught certain things unconsciously and occasionally consciously, given tours of the craft and introduced to other beings and shown Earth from space.
I think children are shown their own futures very occasionally because most children don’t need to be shown.
So think of this as a primer on why ETs interact with children. perhaps I’ll write a follow up, after I have discussed the issue at greater length with several of my ET friends !
If you know of a child who maybe having ET contact, please don’t hesitate to talk to them openly about their experiences and listen as much as you can without judgement.