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Dude and My Dying Sister

I remember sitting with my sister in her backyard one morning in August 2016 and we were talking about her brain tumours and how she was feeling. “I’m terrified of dying and being stuck in a box”, she said. A few months later she took her husband to visit one of her former advertising clients – the local funeral home and she purchased her coffin. That’s how Susy was. She was practical and tried to face her fears, even up to the end.

Susy did very poorly in science and maths at school and struggled to get into university, where she went on to study primary teaching. Even though she loved children, she never ended up becoming a primary teacher. Instead she worked her way from administration in hotels, to car sales to advertising to administration assistant in a hospital consulting room in a private hospital, 70 m from where she eventually died. Susy’s first husband was addicted to KFC and suffered from some kind of eating disorder but I liked him. Her second husband and the man who was to father her two children is a working man with a big heart. I sometimes think of him and dream about him, stuck in that big house looking after two kids who miss their mum. My father hates him, as he hated her first husband. No one was ever good enough for his little girl. But Susy’s husbands did more for her in life, than our father ever did. And my father’s lack of action and genuine care was a source of suffering for Susy, throughout the last decade of her life.

On the outside Susy had everything. A big house, a big car, a husband with a well paid job and 2 beautiful children. But inside I think Susy struggled to fill her life with meaning. When her dog Jessie dissapeared a year before she was diagnosed with Glioblastoma, Susy’s world fell apart. A few days after I spoke to her about the dog’s dissaperance I went looking for Jessie remotely and found her dead in bushland a few kilometers away. She’d been hit by a car and stumbled off in the bush where she later died. I never had the heart to tell Susy what I had discovered. And for 6 months she went looking for her, scanning the missing dogs lists near and far and driving up to an hour away scanning the suburbs. I don’t know what it was about Jessie that meant so much to her. She was there before the children were born and I guess Susy figured she’d be there as they grew up. I knew at the time that Jessie was the last straw in what must have felt for Susy like an endless string of losses, which began when our mother walked out on us when she was 9.  The losses continued when we were stuck in boarding school a year later, when her car was stolen when she was 19, with the loss of her potential future as a primary teacher, with the betrayal of her love when her first husband had 2 affairs and then walked out on her, with the loss of our fathers attention, with the loss of her uterus and gall bladder, with the loss of her dog Jessie and finally with the loss of security when she was diagnosed with advanced Glioblastoma. Although I felt my own losses were far more significant in number and intensity than Susy’s ever were, I knew that every person’s misery is relative. I can take a lot more than most people. I’ve always been resilient in way that many people are not. And even though Susy was also resilient, there was something inside of her that was crying out desperately for the losses to stop ! When I asked her that morning in August if she was happy with her life, she sat her self up straight and promptly replied, “Yes I’m very happy with my life !”. But somehow that didn’t feel true. She was my sister and I’d grown accustomed to her light speed masks. Instead I sensed that deep down inside, there was a growing hole of emptiness, yearning to be filled. I could tell that Susy needed to be noticed. To be seen by her hyperactive children and respected, to have her needs acknowledged by her workaholic husband, to be cared for and loved by our workaholic father, to be cared for and loved by our needy and overly dependent mother, to be valued by her work colleagues, to be acknowledged and loved unconditionally by our self righteous paternal grand mother, to be noticed by the world at large for who she is.

All her life Susy was thin, just like I am. And all though her life people made harsh comments about her body size. The same thing has happened to me but these days I tell people to “fuck off” and I give the same in return. I remember talking to Susy about one episode over the phone, just before Jessie dissapeared. She was in a clothing boutique and a plump middle aged woman made a comment in front of some other women to the effect that “Do you have some kind of problem eating ? You need to eat up dear, you look like a rake !”. Susy was livid ! She threw the clothes she had been trying on down on the floor, told the woman to go fuck her self and stormed out ! It was probably the 500th time someone had commented on her weight. She walked to her car and broke down in a sea of tears ! And then it bothered her for months afterwards. I suspect she even had nightmares about the event. It may have seemed trivial but it was the last straw ! Words cut to the heart ! The children’s rhyme is wrong. “Sticks and stones may break my bones but names can never hurt me !”. What utter crap ! We humans can handle broken bones but names destroy us ! Susy had a thick skin but I think she grew tired of wearing armour ! For once she just wanted people to see past her exterior and see what was inside !

All her life Susy’s spirit screamed to be noticed ! She wanted nothing more than to be acknowledge for who she is ! And in doing so, the world would give her an opportunity to blossom and to thrive ! But Susy was never truly acknowledged by any of the people that mattered. And even though I’m sure she would say I’m being too harsh, there were many people who were bastards towards her ! Encounter after encounter ! The worst of whom were family !

Towards the end of her life Susy was no longer the Susy we knew. I had a terrible argument with her the last night I was with her during my stay in August 2016 and I put that down to her tumours affecting her ability to self regulate her anger and my own tumours doing the same thing. Her poor kids were stuck in the middle of it as we argued in the car, over my choice to boycott going to a dinner being prepared by our bigoted grand mother. The next morning was the last I would see anything of the sister I once knew. In the months that followed, she slowly deteriorated. One day her husband came home and found her slumped on the floor in the shower with no memory of how she got there. Later she would begin reminisce about things that were completely out of context. She would have accidents where she would overfill her tea cup and not know when to stop. She would urinate on her self during dinner and be unaware until someone noticed the smell. She would forget how to do the most ordinary things. Eventually she got to the point where it was impossible to leave her alone without 24 hour supervision. And even though Susy’s awareness had changed, that must have been hard for her. She had been the kind of person who had been fiercely independent all her life !

I had come back from my trip in August, a little angry with my sister. Angry about what I’m still not sure. But I think I was angry about how she had been, angry at losing her, angry at my father and my grand mother for ignoring her needs, angry with her kids and her husband for not doing more to care. I was angry about something. And then towards the end of the year I was very busy with my own life and I didn’t speak with her for 2 months. But my business was an excuse. I don’t know if it was because I feared how she would be or because I was avoiding something. When I did finally speak with her in January 2017, I was shocked to learn that her tumours had doubled in size and that things were heading in the direction I’d been shown 3 times in my life by my ET friends. I never wanted any of that to come to fruition ! When I spoke to Susy, she was child like and her anger was gone. She was full of simple curiosity and marvel at the things that she could remember. I made a conscious effort to bring up memories from our shared past that I knew would make her feel good. And even though they did, I was struggling to find enough memories to connect us. It was almost impossible to talk with her about the present. All we had was the past. And in a way I found that heart breaking ! My sister who had always been a fountain of trivial details about what was happening in her own life and the lives of the people she loved, was bereft of almost anything that was part of her usual life. It was perfectly clear, that part of her had already died.

After I heard from Susy’s husband that Susy had been moved into palliative care, I asked Dude again if he would connect with her before she died and then after she died. He said that he would and I left it at that. I returned to visit Susy one last time in February 2017, during the period that I have come to think of as the darkest period of my life. There were other dark events happening that to this day I still don’t fully understand. Some have to do with Conjoined Space, others have to do with intervention by external agencies and others are a little more enigmatic. I did the best that I could to be there for Susy, even though this other set of events plagued me night and day. I am usually someone who can be fully present to the moment. But for 4 days as I sat by Susy’s side and spent time with her family, other things were tearing away at my heart and my mind. I felt terrible then and afterwards, that I was so unable to give myself entirely to Susy.

While I sat with Susy, I thought of her comments about being stuck in a box and I thought she would be OK, given that she had since decided to be cremated and her time in a box would be brief. For four days I watched her awareness deteriorate. I saw moments when I knew that she was aware of us and moments when it was like she had already gone Home. I looked at her body and thought how strange it was that my beloved sister who had always been thin was going to die a good weight, thanks to the anti tumour drugs she had been taking for the last year. He hair had changed from blonde to brunette and she looked very much like a younger version of our mother. Unfortunately I was not able to stay with Susy until the end. I had to return home because I’d been told I would start my own treatment in a few days and because these other events were getting the better of me. On the last night I ever spent with Susy, there was a huge tropical storm. At one point when Susy was sleeping I went outside for 30 minutes. I sat watching the storm near front of the hospital, letting the rain lash my body, enjoying the energy of the wind, the rain and the lightning. I thought about all the tropical storms we had witnessed together as children living in Hong Kong with our father. I thought about things we had said to one another. I thought about her beautiful children and how these were the last days that they would have with their mother. I thought about all the other people who were dying in the palliative care unit and those who were dying tonight. I thought about the wild old lady who was walking up and down the corridors waiting for someone to take her home. And I thought about what Susy might be experiencing now.

As we sat in the backyard that morning in August the year before, I asked Susy what she believed and it was clear that she didn’t really know. She didn’t know if she believed in God and she was angry with it as hell if it did exist ! She was angry that she was probably going to die ! She didn’t know if she believed if there was a life after death ! She believed in love but she didn’t know who would care if she died. And so for the 3rd time since it had happened, I told her about my experience of being taken by the Sar’Won’Dee and the Teal’hia to merge with The Light. and I reminded her (as I had my friend Tom who had died a few years earlier), that everything will be OK. We all go HOME. And that death will not hurt. There will be people there who love her and care about her. And then she will know that she is loved. Loved by them, loved by others, loved by God. She liked hearing that. But she was still angry with this whole God thing. Which I suspect was a byproduct of our hypocritical Catholic upbringing ! She was stuck like many people, on the great mystery of suffering. Having already worked my way through that beast of confusion, I did my best to help her to see the good in what was happening and to be optimistic about her future. Even though secretly, I knew what was to come.

The day after Susy died, I asked Dude if he had had the opportunity to connect with her and he told me that he had. One morning at about 3 am, he took her away from her body into a space that he had created for her. He explained to her what was happening and who he was and that he was my friend. According to Dude, that made her very happy and it brings tears to my eyes every time I think about it. Just knowing that he was there for her. Dude spent quite a while with Susy. He told her that she was dying and what would soon happen. He told her about all the people who had come to say farewell and that her big brother had been there for her but had had to go away early. And later, after she died, he visited her on several occasions. Several times when I asked him how she was going, he gave me an update and it pleased me to know that she was OK. It took me a long time to consciously connect with her. I don’t really know why I didn’t do it sooner. I guess I felt Susy was OK without my help. In a few days I plan on talking to her again. Perhaps now it is time to begin talking to her every few weeks, as we did when she was alive. With the Internal Worlds approach we can meet just like old times and I can see and know for myself what life is like for her now.

I have an internal world for meeting people who have died. But I need to make a special place in it for Susy. One that will make her feel right at home. A place that is covered in flowers and butterflies and small birds, where small dogs are also welcome and somewhere in the background The Eagles are playing Hotel California. Susy and I have been connected across many life times. I don’t know whether this marks the end or the continuation of our connection to one another. The only thing that is certain, is that Susy has gone ahead before me. And perhaps now, my little sister will be the one who teaches me about what is to come !



The 2018 ET and I Fundraiser

Hey folks, I haven’t done a fundraiser in quite a while. As many of you know I write this blog and make the TSMS because I care. There is no real profit in what I’m doing, although I do get donations every now and then – usually one a month from my most loyal supporters ! And for that I am very much appreciative ! But as many of you also know, I’m in my 11th year of healing through renal carcinoid tumours and struggling right now with significant side effects from the treatment medication. This year my son has in part put off going to university (to study a Bachelor of IT), so that he can take care of me. From my perspective I’m OK but he worries a lot about me because he’s seen me crash and he sees me dealing with the daily side effects of both the tumours and the medication. My son is receiving a carers payment to help look after me and I’m trying to urge him to save most of that so that he can afford to go to university. Already (much to my surprise !), he’s put his hand up and paid for a number of bills. I don’t mind him doing that but he’ll never be able to afford to go to university if he keeps doing that !

It’s now been 6 years since I left work to heal and it hasn’t been easy financially. I miss having a good salary ! But I needed to make that choice, otherwise I would have died ! So I don’t regret it for one second ! I am slowly working towards offering some courses on Udemy (or something like it) on a range of subjects including Dream Analysis and Explorations, Family Systems, Self Awareness and a bunch of other stuff. And I’m still planning on making the How to Make ET Contact audio material. But that’s all in the pipeline and dependent on my health improving ! Some days I feel great and like I can knock it all over in a week and other days I feel shit house like I’m at death’s door ! I’m optimistic that I’ll be reasonably tumour free in a few years but I know that anything can happen !



Right now I plan on staying on my Lanreotide injections for another 6 months – if I can last that long with the side effects. But I’m exploring the possibility of connecting with an Oncology Biotech group I first contacted in Sydney (New South Wales) a decade ago and I’m also planning on making a trip to Adelaide (South Australia) to explore an equally novel treatment – where I’d be a guinea pig. I’m not sure if either are worth pursuing. I still have this stubborn notion of avoiding all western and alternative treatments and making the changes in my psychological and emotional functioning that I know heal. Have already healed some of my tumours ! But I’m a realist and I know I need to have options up my sleeve, in case my tumours get bad tempered with me ! I’d also like to take a real holiday with my son to the Flinders Ranges in South Australia because we’ve been stuck here unable to go anywhere for far too long !

My intention has always been to become self sufficient again one day. To work for myself entirely –  through running courses and writing books. And even though I’ve spent much of the last 6 years focused on writing my books, I’ve yet to make writing pay – except through your help here.

In order for me to continue ET and I and The Something Monologues I need to be able to survive financially. This year I’m looking to raise $5,000 so that I can pay my bills and explore other treatment options. I always feel that it sucks asking for money ! But I do try very hard to give what I can. Admittedly I don’t write as much as I used to but I still feel the need to do what I can. As I have said before, anyone who donates $50 or more will have full access to the contact audio and e-versions of my books.

If you appreciate my work, please consider making a donation. You can do so by going to the “Consider making a donation” tab on the top right hand side of this page. Any support you can offer will be much appreciated !


Why ETs and ET Contact Matters

I want to say something about why I believe that ET and ET contact matters. I think all human beings will recognise that mankind and Earth are in trouble. Why are we in trouble ? Because man does not know his own mind ? Socrates suggestion to KNOW THYSELF, has fallen on deaf ears. And because of this we have fallen into a miasma of uncertainty, from which we may never find our way out. But no one can save us but we ourselves.

There are non space faring ETs and space faring ETs. And as I’ve said before the Creator Races and others beyond them ensure that you don’t become genuinely space faring, until you’ve grown up and sorted out your shit !  Man kind is a long way from reaching this point in our development. But it is in our future. And then when that time comes, we will be seen by many others as ETs and they will look to us for guidance.

ETs matter because there is so much diversity and so much for us to experience and to learn. From those who are unable to move off planet, those who can only travel a small way through space and those who are truly space faring. All life matters because it exists ! We matter and ETs matter because they exist. ET contact matters because it gives and will give us the opportunity to have experiences with other people and other places and because there is so much for us to learn about everything. My friend Frédéric recently asked some very interesting questions about how a certain race of ETs do their work. How do they know who’s in charge, what needs to be done and how to do it ? And I asked a similar question of the Tearhom last December. The space faring ETs have figured out stuff that is still foreign to our way of functioning. And most importantly, they’ve figured out how to tolerate and accept each other and avoid hurting others unnecessarily. But these are just a handful of the endless possibilities of what we might learn from the ETs. Me, personally, I’m interested in lots of things and the 10 ETs I am closest to, are teaching me about a range of things. But first and foremost, about the nature of reality and how to deepen the well of experience.

There is however one reason above all others why ETs and ET contact matter. We humans are slow learners ! And as we’ve demonstrated before, we will destroy each other before we wake up and we have short memories. We need someone to be there for us, who won’t walk away just because we fuck up !



You and I won’t live to see peace on Earth and neither will the next 100 generations of the human race. But Some ETs will. Some have been with us since the beginning (having created this world) and will be with us, until we become space faring and join the great collectives that fill the cosmos. My friend Dude is 8,600 plus years old (by human standards) and he has been on Earth since 1253 BC, working slowly to support the development of the human species and to protect Earth. His people first came her over 3 billion years ago and maintain a small presence here because they care for our  wellbeing and the wellbeing of all life on Earth. He and they know that millions of us will die because of our ceaseless judgement of us and them and our desire for conflict. In addition, they know that the diversity of all life on our planet will be all but wiped out by humanity and human over population. But they will still be here long after we are gone and all memory of you and I is long since extinguished because they’re here for the long run ! And not just the Muajra but many of the space faring ET races !

We have this idea that every person has fundamental human needs that should be addressed so that we can develop fully. ETs believe that too and they’re leaving it up to us to figure that out and how to make it happen. But they also believe in higher order needs and that every person has a right to address higher order needs, such as love, curiosity, desire, perception and feeling. And we’re not very good at addressing those needs. Humans in the distant future will have licked up the lower levels of Maslow’s pyramid like it was a delicious cake and live to focus on the glory of enjoying real development. The ETs who are visiting Earth now, are offering us a way to move past us and them, to address our fundamental needs and see the potential to realise our higher order needs – whatever they maybe ! But it’s up to us to stop getting caught up in the bullshit and to see them as they really are. And what is it that we’ll see when we look clearly, free of all baggage ? Infinite diversity ! Different body shapes, different elemental life forms, different perceptions, different ways of functioning, different senses, different intelligence’s, different beliefs, different ideas and conceptions, different choices, different kinds of consciousness, different technologies, different developmental life paths for individuals and races and my favourite thing of all – endless stories about the things they’ve seen and experienced, places they’ve been, creatures and people that they’ve met and developed relationships with.

And what do we have to gain by developing relationships with them ? Everything ! Absolutely everything ! I believe that we owe it to our descendants to appreciate the kinds of relationships that we can have with ETs. After all, everything that they will become, will arise from the foundations of what we leave behind. Why not expand our relationships and grow, so that we can leave them with something more substantial than history left us ?

ETs won’t save us from ourselves. Only we can do that. But ETs do offer us a unique opportunity to see what’s possible. And I’m not talking about space craft, amazing weapons and biotechnology. I’m talking about what’s possible in relation to who we can become.

Dude often reminds me that his race was once very barbaric and people cared only for themselves. Now they care for a seemingly endless number of beings. They create universes, souls, galaxies, planets and life forms. If another race can make that kind of transformation over many billions of years, maybe we can too !

Sometimes the balance between looking backwards and looking forwards is a difficult one to find. I am grateful that many of the ETs know all of our history and much of what takes place in our hearts and minds. Even if we forget where we came from, they will remember.


An ET Answer to Life, the Universe and Everything

Our ET friend Dude once told Rachel in all serious, that the answer to everything is 2. Not 42 (sorry Douglas Adams !) but 2. I think I know what he was getting at but I’m not absolutely certain. Sometimes Dude is very enigmatic and you think he’s getting at one thing but he’s actually getting at another.

What does this answer mean to you ?


An Update on the Dude Book

Yes, it’s another update.! I’ve been typing away like mad and a little while back the book passed the 600 page mark, with no end in sight ! And so today after much indecision, I cut the book into 3 books – Interview with an Extraterrestrial, Conversations with an Extraterrestrial and Dude’s Maxims. The first two are easy because it’s what I have been working on. But the third one is much harder because I have to read through the first two books and pull out material to tag as maxims and I’m probably going to renumber them, so they maybe different to what I have posted here. I don’t know if it will be harder doing it this way but I figured that not many people would probably want to read a 700 page plus book on this subject.

I am so over this book ! It’s bloody hard work ! 😉

Shazbot : How to Tell A Really Bad ET Story

Some of you will know that I consciously distance myself from 99 % of the people who claim to have ET contact and that I am so over the big names in this field because I think they’re delusional and full of shit – unaware of their own psyche !

So here’s how to tell a really bad ET story – one that is likely delusional, false, inaccurate and complete with all the well known memes of UFOlogy/Alienology (please note that not all these features need to be present). When the story teller :

  • Shows footage of a so called hypnotic regression, in which they are clearly being led by someone who has no idea what they’re doing.
  • Talks about Reptilians and/or human-alien hybrids.
  • Talks about their hybrid children.
  • Talks constantly refer to abduction.
  • Refers to their previous life as an ET or entity from the astral plane.
  • Talks about Earth being under the control of some insidious alien race.
  • Refers incessantly to densities and 4th dimension, 5th dimension etc – as if they have intimate knowledge of these apparent certainties.
  • Talks about the battle between the light and the dark.
  • Believes that the devil is supporting evil aliens to take over Earth and claim the souls of man.
  • Talks about aliens needing gold.
  • Talks about aliens wanting to harvest humans as food.
  • Refers to the Galactic Federation of Light, the Orions, the Nordics, the grays, Annunaki, Ashtar Command, Starseeds, Nephilim, Atlantis and Lemuria, Ascension, Nibiru, Sphere Being Alliance, Pleiadian High Council etc.
  • Confuses ET race names with constellation names eg. Draco/Draconions, Orion/Orions etc.
  • Thrives on popularity, conferences, interviews etc. Unaware ego is a powerful motivator !
  • Talks about communications from specific ETs through crop circles.
  • Lacks significant self awareness.
  • Rehashes other ideas that have been popular since the 1940’s
  • Does not ever seem to look for alternative explanations for their experiences (believe me that’s hard work but you have to do it if you’re honest with your self).

All of this sort of shit is the reason that I intend of withdrawing from this field one day. I’ll try and offer an antidote to the stupidity and then perhaps a few people will understand what’s real and what’s not and learn how to have contact themselves and then I’m out of here ! The human race is crazy ! Absolutely fucking mad !

You should always question everything I say about my own experiences, just as you should question your own experiences. There are no experts ! And mind is the foreground of all phenomenon !

You should use careful discernment in regard to anything to do with the ET/UFO field, just as you should use careful discernment in believing anything else in your life ! Don’t be brainwashed by idiots and charlatans !


An Update on the Dude Book

Hey folks, here’s an update on the Dude book.

Yesterday I translated the book from A4 format into a standard book format (23 * 15 cm) and was surprised that it came in at 378 pages ! I had thought I would have the book finished by last month but it just keeps getting away on me ! It might take another 3-4 months ! Most of what I have to do is transcribe some of the conversations that we’ve had. Sometimes I have written down conversations by hand or taken hand written transcripts when I needed to give my body a break from the computer, so I still have a lot of pages to type up. I also want to ask Dude 25 more questions about Conjoined Space because it turned out to be such a complex and unusual subject. And I am currently talking to him about large scale structures of the cosmos and this particular universe. At this rate, the book is likely to come in between 500-600 pages, which is way bigger than I had originally envisaged ! I’m still uncertain if perhaps I should split it into 2 books. One based on the interview and one based on the conversations/maxims. I just don’t know. I like the idea of it all being in one book but I understand that a book that size might be a bit daunting to some people. I will probably offer it both as a hard copy and an ebook. I’d be happy to hear any of your advice on publishing !

Unfortunately many of the conversations we had were never recorded and I just have notes of those conversations, so they’ll go in under the title of partial notes and conversations.

You can see a sketch of the contents page here : and what I’ve shared of the book so far here :

The front cover will have the drawing that Rachel has done of Dude and there will be a couple of drawings of him in the book. There will also be diagrams of some of the concepts he has explained.

There is also an explanation in the book of why he’s called Dude and some comments about his real name but I am afrid I can’t disclose his real name ever !

I think as a book, this crosses many boundaries. It’s part cosmology, part spirituality, part personal development and part story telling – in a way that only Dude can do. I don’t know if it’s a good book but it’s an honest book and a book that has already changed my life in many unforeseen ways !

Some of the subjects that Dude talks about are so confronting, that even I am still trying to make sense of them. The subject of Conjoined Space has turned out to be so complex and unusual that I felt I needed to explore it as far as I can. It’s an insight that makes the Multiverse/parallel lives concept look like learning the ABC ! In addition to that, as I’ve been writing the book I’ve been having my own experiences with Conjoined Space that have been deeply troubling and have helped to confirm the reality of what Dude has been conveying.

I’m quite sure that once the book is published there will be a critics who dismiss the whole thing as my delusion or nit pick it to pieces. But it is my wish that there will be other people who believe that it is what it claims to be and for whom reading the book will be a life changing experience ! The truth is that Dude didn’t have to participate in creating this book with me and in fact, he initially declined my request. But for some reason he changed his mind.

Writing the book has bought Dude and I closer together and given me a great deal more respect for him. In one sense the book is a display of his love and compassion towards the human race and a real show of faith in who we are and who we might become ! Even though he claims that ETs don’t feel compassion because they see things how they are and act accordingly.

I am still planning on doing a similar book with Anamika. The two ET books will provide people with two dramatic contrasts between two very different ancient ET races. But I swear by all the fluffy fuck asses (Dude’s name for cats) in the world, that after that I will never do this again ! It has been the most exhausting writing that I have ever done ! I truly pity the stenographers of the world ! Such courageous souls !

I don’t yet know how to price the book but I’ll try and make the ebook as accessible as possible.

Apart from finishing the bloody thing, my only real wish at this point is that I could have the book translated it into some other languages – Chinese (Mandarin), Japanese, Russian and Indian (Hindi), to start with. But that might be a bit hard since I’ll be self publishing ! Maybe it’s something to aim for down the track !

So that’s where it’s at ! I’ll let you know when it’s ready to be published !

If you’d like to support the work I’m doing or help me get through life with tumours, you can donate via the button at the top of the right hand side of this page ! Anyone who donates more than $50 will have access to all materials I produce.



“God is a constraining idea. This divine force if you will, or whatever you wish to call it, is not limited by my conception or the conception of any other living being in this reality or in any other reality. It exists because it exists and does not have any need to express itself in any particular way. It expresses itself as it will, wherever expression is needed. It includes and consumes everything. Everything that you will know in your existence arises from this force and it will eventually give birth to all things that will ever exist in your reality and other realities.” 

“This thing that you have felt to be God, that you have experienced as God and I am talking about you personally Bright. This thing that you have taken to be God is an entity, a force, a void, a light – whatever that you wish to call it, that permeates every reality in every possible way. You may experience it as one thing but that doesn’t mean to say that is all that it is. You experience it in a way that is most meaningful to you. In a way that strikes a chord of truth and resonates through the depths of your soul. If you were raised somewhere else in the universe with different ideas and experiences and different ideas about the nature of love and being; you would experience this presence, this entity in a completely different way…Something that would have manifested what you needed for the deepest possible experience of being. Instead, in this reality, you experienced light. But you knew that this thing, this God that you experienced, that you became, was more than just light…In other places, in other lives, in different circumstances and within different cultures, you would have experienced this completely differently. “

“So when we say that we facilitate the growth and development of complex life forms, we are saying that we foster the development of sentience. The development of this higher sentience, provides the possibility for us to further accelerate the development of the species and to develop the responsibilities of that particular species. When highly developed life forms develop high levels of sentience, they also develop greater levels of responsibility and when they become more responsible, they help in the development of diversity and in the development of well being for the entire planet. Highly developed organisms – complex organisms with highly developed sentience, have responsibilities to other species on their planet. They become like custodians. They develop an awareness of the needs of others and of the whole and they work towards these ends.” 

Dude, Interview with an ET.








Most Watched Videos

I really find Youtube a bit of a wank ( ! It’s just such a huge waste of time and the damage it does to the natural world is inconceivable. In addition it is despicable what it does for advertisers, who ride off the backs of many ordinary people who just want to share. Having said that I have a video channel and enjoy YT for discovering new music. From time to time I’ve considered taking all my videos down, as I did recently, because among other reasons I feel very uncomfortable with how my own videos have contributed to the use of electricity, the burning of coal and environmental destruction. My only justification is that I plant a lot of trees and feel that YT is one way to educate people about ETs and how to make ET contact.

My channel only has only has 1529 subscribers (big deal) and has had about 226,279 views – which in comparison to some of the addicts who make gaming videos, Minecraft videos, sing Somebody That I Used to Know, made Charlie Bit My Finger, or danced Gangam Style; it’s peanuts. Honestly, I find it disgusting how many people watch some of this crap and I wonder if the creators of these popular videos ever think about the environmental impact their creation has. If I could change the past I would kill the creators of Youtube and Steve Jobs before they got going ! 😉 But, I suppose, like all things, YT and Apple related technologies have both positive and negative aspects.

Anyway, here are some of my top 10 most watched videos, in order. Watch at your own peril ! I plan on uploading a few TSMs to YT at some point and making 2 or 3 more videos about my ET experiences and then that’s it ! I’m done with the whole thing ! Wankathon over ! 😉


A Beautiful Fiction : An ET on The Life Force, Fundamental Energy and Forces in the Universe

In recent years I’ve begun asking a number of my ET friends about the fundamental nature/structure of the universe. Most of my discussions have been with Dude, who has progressively turned everything I thought to be true on it’s head.

Some time ago I asked Dude if I could include some of our conversations on the subject in the Interview/Conversation book. So some of you will have noticed that I’ve begun talking about things like the life force and Conjoined Space. What follows is an introductory conversation about what Dude refers to as our beautiful fiction – the model that we have that the universe is composed of particles and particles are composed of strings. Its worth noting that Dude actually took the conversation in a different direction to what I had been looking for (as he often does !) but by doing so he answered a more important question. This conversation marked the beginning of what has become a much longer, more detailed conversation about the nature of the universe. It will probably go in the book as an introduction to the fundamental nature/structure of the universe.

Please be warned, if you’re a physicist or a materialist of any form, you’re likely to reject this outright !

What I like about Dude’s response to my question, is that he basically dispels away with all so called Theories of Everything on the basis that our way of looking at things is fundamentally flawed. I myself have always been suspicious of so called TOES and especially Big TOEs, which I think represent the ravings of unaware and ignorant egos, that think they know everything !

This particular conversation took place on a hot summers evening as I walked 4 km down the dirt/bitumen road, watching out for snakes, while shooing flies off my face. During the conversation (as in many of our conversations), I stopped to eat a muesli bar, connect with the birds and the sheep and to watch the sun going down. This isn’t a physics lecture or a formal dialogue. It’s a conversation between two friends, one of whom is walking down a road at twilight after a stinking hot day, while the other is collecting plants from cold terrain in Iceland. It’s typical of many of our walking conversations.

“Bright : OK, so we’ve talked a lot about the life force. You’ve talked to me about secondary energies. I know that the way that humans see energy is completely wrong. You made a comment about energy in my ear being weak before and in my body. That sort of thing and I’m not sure how that fits in with what you’re talking about. Any comments ?

Dude : Secondary energies Bright. Go back to what I said.

B : OK, so my comment, my question is…we’ve talked about those subjects and so in a way I have this nebulous concept of energy. I don’t mean that disrespectfully. When scientists talk about energy, they talk about electromagnetic energy – energy from the electromagnetic spectrum and they talk about forces – electromagnetic force, magnetic force, the strong and weak nuclear force. You know whatever. I’m not a physicist, so I can’t remember this stuff.

So when I write this stuff up I have a sense that a lot of people will critique it because it isn’t in a language that they understand and there’s no commentary about physics as we know it or forces or energies as we know them. So I wanted to ask you a question. I know that our systems are inaccurate and wrong. Is it possible to describe either the life force or secondary energies in terms of any of the energies that we know or forces, or is it possible to talk about other fundamental forces that are part of the building blocks of reality ? And I know that you’ve turned everything on it’s head, so I might be asking a stupid question. I also realise that it’s a question that could turn into a very long answer – you know hundreds of pages. So, can you kind of give me a bit of summary here ? And this is an area that we need to go into but I might ask you another time and do 30 pages or whatever and put it into the book. So I think it’s sort of a critical area, that sort of offers an antidote to some of those people who would critique it. And maybe clarify some things for them but also maybe for me too. Am I asking you something stupid ?

D : No Bright, it’s not stupid at all. I’ve been asked similar questions before. So let me answer it this way. And this will take a little while – maybe 10 minutes or so. And we could do a lot more. But we’ll do that at another time.

Alright, so, you asked a question that’s important, like questions I’ve been asked before by your scientists and other people. And it’s something that people aren’t comfortable with. So I’ll try to address that discomfort for you.

Let me start by saying this. You have this idea that the universe contains particles and particles are made of smaller things. And some of your scientists talk about String Theory and they think that explains everything. So they have this idea that strings vibrate and some are long and some are short and some are closer to others and others are further away. And the way that the strings vibrate causes certain particles to form and those particles form bigger particles and subatomic particles, all way up to atoms and so on. So this model is nice, for human beings. It’s comfortable. They like it ! It feels good ! It fits a rosy picture ! But it’s no where near the truth. In fact it has nothing to do with the truth. It’s a beautiful fiction and nothing more ! And I wanna give you two reasons why that is the case. The first reason is this. What you appear to believe are particles – lets call them sub atomic particles. What you appear to believe are particles are not what they are. You still haven’t understood the simple theme. The life force is altered by the amount of energy – that is secondary energies, you put into a system and so when you do that you change structure. So when you go looking for sub atomic particles, that’s what you find. Things that fit your expectation and sometimes things that don’t fit your expectation but fit the models that you have. You don’t find what is real. You find what you want to see – a model that fits nicely or a model that interprets or accepts many of the ideas that you’ve created to explain things. So that’s the first problem. The second problem, the second thing is this. You have these ideas that that there are certain forces that exist in themselves throughout the universe, that are discrete entities that act in a certain way, when matter is together. But you don’t understand something simple. Once again, the life force is the key. The life force connects everything and the life force radiates constantly. I said before that it resonates in different ways and those resonations radiate outwards through secondary energies. Secondary energies in all kinds of material objects – whether you can see them or not. The material universe as you know it ! And so Bright, depending on the behaviour of those secondary energies, the life force will behave differently. But it’s not dependent on them; they are dependent on it. Do you understand ? One but not the other. And so depending on the behaviour of these secondary energies, you see all kinds of effects. Everything, from what you consider to be gravity, to electromagnetism, the nuclear force, bonding… all kinds of things. Things that you don’t have good ideas about but you have nice models for. And so when the scientists look at this stuff, sure they can do measurements – things look rosy in their picture, they create nice models that fit together nicely. But they don’t explain the thing ! They don’t explain why that works that way. So this is a fundamental flaw in your thinking. They don’t have any understanding of why these so called forces are what they are. And that’s what I’m trying to say. They in themselves are not forces. What you are seeing are effects. Effects of particular activities associated with secondary energies. In other words, fluctuations in the life force, create these effects. Fluctuations in the life force, create these effects as a result of permutations in the many different secondary energies. There is no single secondary energy that is the same anywhere in the cosmos ! It is constantly in flux ! And because of this, the things that you see, that you believe to be forces, may appear to be similar, may appear to be identical but they’re not. They only appear that way. And why do they appear that way ? Because the thing that is looking at them, has a certain kind of secondary energy. And that is you ! Human beings ! So, because of that you are unable to discern the cosmos as it really is. You are influencing it ! You are shaping it ! Your perception is being altered by your own secondary energies and unless you can overcome that, you cannot see how things really are ! You can only see what you wish to see ! Something that fits the model nicely ! So that’s what I would say to get you going.

So, if you want to know if there are fundamental forces, fundamental particles – any building blocks of the material world, I would say they are none of the things you believe them to be ! Not a single one ! There are no sub atomic particles made of strings. That’s just garbage ! A pure fiction ! Instead there is the life force – pure energy, unadulterated energy, primary energy. Not a secondary energy.

B : Can you describe it ?

D : Yes but not in the terms that you’re familiar with. The simplest way to describe it is to say that it exists in all forms as a precursor to material existence and within material existence. It gives birth to consciousness and unconsciousnes and it gives birth to matter, as you know it and it gives birth to space. Space as we’ve talked about, including conjoined space. All spaces.

So Bright, did that get you going ?

B : Ugh, I’d certainly like to write this up and read it back. I think it does. Because we can’t step outside of our own systems and ideas and conceptions and all of modern physic and mathematics and so on, is created from within these basic systems, ideas and conceptions; it almost sounds to me like it would be impossible for humans to envisage another explanation. And I think what you’re offering me is another explanation but in the simplest kind of way of expressing it because we don’t have a language for it. And I wish you could tell me that particles are made up of this or there is this force or that force. But what you’re telling me is that our conceptions, our ideas, our systems are flawed and that’s going to be very confronting for people – especially if I don’t offer something in it’s place ! I mean I don’t have any obligation ! But especially if I don’t offer something that they can digest. So I’m quite OK with what you say. It fits with what I thought in a way that might be true – that our modern ideas are sort of fundamentally wrong, flawed if you like. But I didn’t have an understanding of why that might be and you’ve just given me that understanding.

D : So are you happy with that explanation ? Would you like to go into it in detail sometime ? Do the 30 or 40 or 50 pages for your book ?

B : I dread having that much writing to do but if it’s something that you think that we ought to do or that would be good, yeah, I think that would be good.

D : I’m not going to tell you what you ought to do Bright. It’s up to you what you’d like to do.

B : I’m OK with that.”

Your Internal Worlds

I dedicate this brief post to the PK fellowship !

Some of you will be familiar with my ideas about co-creating an internal world for ET contact Those of you who ‘get it’ will see the wider possibilities and implications for such practices. You will also understand that the human imagination has built everything in our human world. All that is good and all that is bad. Each moment we create our own heaven and our own hell and all that is in between.

Sometimes the best way to learn something is by being pushed out of your comfort zone. So let me ask all of you, if you could create an internal world in life or in death, what would it look like, what would fill that world and what kinds of experiences would you have there ? This maybe a useful exercsie for any one who wishes to develop this particular practice.

Wishing you all a splendidly magnificent day of human life !

Brighty. 😉

PS. The following are really stories of the imagination, that build worlds in your head. Feel free to suggest some of your own storied songs or poems.


Candid Quasar

tryst with Life


Polar bear science - past and present

Portals of London

Towards a catalogue of London’s inter-dimensional gateways

All Bricks

Showing the world, the variety of different amazing Building Blocks, including LEGO and it’s Chinese Clones

Silentium et Musicorum

From silence to music and everything in between

Selected Essays and Squibs by Joseph Suglia

The Web log of Dr. Joseph Suglia


Undermining the Patriarchy Every Chance I Get. And I Get a Lot of Chances (Copyright Preserved)

roads bel travelled

Exploring open roads without breaking the bank

Macy Afterlife: The Beacon

Exploring our spiritual heritage, our ancient other-worldly roots, and our paradise destiny

Leonardo Boff

O site recolhe os artigos que escrevo semanalmente e de alguns outros que considero notáveis.Os temas são ética,ecologia,política e espiritualidade.

ventania solar


The Pagan Collective of Victoria

Connect. Share. Celebrate.

Climate Change Sanity

Climate change is primarily a natural phenomenon!


children's author


A Magazine About Love


Words helping us unwind!

Gowers's Weblog

Mathematics related discussions

my word in your ear

words for dissemination ... poetry commentary and selected poems ... Richard Scutter

Journeys in Spirit

with Cristen Rodgers

The Mind of RD REVILO

Conscious Thought: Driven by Intelligent Awareness

The Colossus

With just enough learning to misquote


The fictional diary of an utterly fictional John Banville in his fictional universe.

Fatiesta's Rants

Life of A Partial Psychopath

What's new

Updates on my research and expository papers, discussion of open problems, and other maths-related topics. By Terence Tao

Publishing Insights

Plus ça change, plus c'est la même chose / The more things change, the more they stay the same

Kelly McGonigal, PhD

Where science and compassion meet.

Storytime with John

Pull up and listen...I've got a funny one for ya...

Paradise Preoccupied

Views of the world from a tiny island

Dear Kitty. Some blog

On animals, peace and war, civil liberties, science, social justice, women's issues, arts, and much more


Cultural Theory and Society

Social Health

Insights on the Power of Social Bonds

Adventures in Juggling

living this circus life, what else would I be doing but juggling?

Vonj Productions

Bringing you love through spirit!

Power Plant Men

True Power Plant Stories

A Buick in the Land of Lexus

fresh hell trumps stale heaven

A Writer's Path

Sharing writing tips, information, and advice.

mulatto diaries

creating a bye-racial world


A lot of rambling about a lot of things

Musical Nourishment

Cultivating great musical taste

Beyond the Weatherzone................

What are they doing to our weather? Is it HAARP? The NWC transmitter?Or just a software glitch?