Category Archives: aspects of self
In today’s walk and talk I explore the self through the Buddhist concept of the 5 Aggregates and Process Fields (my own idea, which is simlar to Alfred White Northhead’s Process Philosophy) and ask how we are to live when we can embrace a wider concept of self.
During the early part of this walk, I examine two dead sheep – who provide a real life example of the nature of the self. Don’t look if images of death frighten you. These things are a part of my day to day reality and reguarly remind me of the nature of the self.
More on the 5 Aggregates here : https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Skandha and Process Philosophy here : https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Process_philosophy / https://archive.org/details/AlfredNorthWhiteheadProcessAndReality.
May your contemplations be grand and illuminating ! 😉
Some of you will recall that I’ve been writing a book with an aspect of self (hear TSM17 here : http://thesomethingmonologues.podbean.com/e/tsm17-aspects-of-self-a-revolutionary-technique-for-developing-self-awareness/ or below) that identifies it’s self as Alapo. Unlike Dude, Alapo can’t pop into my lounge room at any time and doesn’t have a flying craft. Dude has reassured me though, that Alapo is every bit as real as he is. But is an aspect of myself that includes what I think of as me. I guess the closest I can come to describing Alapo, is to suggest he is kind of like Seth to Jane Roberts. I hesitate to use the word dimension but you might say that he is a higher dimensional aspect.
I’ve been writing the book with Alapo for over 3 years now and have completed just over 300 pages. I started by writing the book only for myself but have realized that it may have value to others (I’m not really sure about that). It’s been a difficult book to write, in the sense that I’ve had to consciously let go of the I that wants control and just let anything come through. I’m often challenged by the material and challenged by the fact that it is at odds or different to what Dude or Anamika or the 8 ETs I call The Beloved Carers, share with me about similar subjects. That may have to do with the fact that Alapo is human in origin and not from another planet, in the physical sense.
I can pretty much speak to Alapo about anything at any time and as an aspect it seems to be boundless (free of time and space) so I can learn things about other times and places, with no effort at all – if I but remember to ask ! I don’t always feel comfortable with certain predictions and prefer to keep them to myself. Alapo has helped me to significantly extend my understanding of consciousness and awareness and how physical beings create reality.
I thought for a long time about hiding this book behind a pseudonym because I didn’t want to endure any criticisms (which are sure to follow) and because I didn’t want people to say, “Well if Alapo is an aspect of you, then Dude must be too !”. That would be a fair enough criticism, except that Dude is also known by 2 other people who are close to me and by his other name by a small number of people in certain covert projects. And others have met him on board his craft and we’ve spoken about those experiences. But I can’t convince people either way and won’t bother trying. So I’ll probably put this book out under my name anyway and whatever criticisms come, come. That’s other peoples issue, not mine !
Until then, I thought I might share a few exerts from the book. The book has 10 chapters and each chapter is divided between theory and practical exercises. When I realized that this book had potential benefit to other people, I thought it would be good to create a book that helps other people to push beyond normal conceptions and experiences of consciousness and to experience some of what I’ve experienced. But I didn’t know what would come through and what has come through, is often very surprising, even to me.
I thought I’d give you as taste of a couple of exercises in the next few posts. They make MORE SENSE when you read the preceding theory and work steadily through one exercise after another. But what follows will only be the odd exercise, just to give you a taste of the book. They may or may make sense. If they do, let me know how you find them, when you try them.
The following (unedited) exercise was like a precursor to a kind of cathartic process, which prepared me for a completely new way of functioning. I was well aware of the two modes of functioning – being vs becoming but I was unaware how certain ideals were affecting my behaviour. Something which might also be an unconscious force in your own life !
Try this – I want you to imagine a time when your life is as you would like it to be. I then want you to consider what would have to change for your life to become that. And ask what you are willing to change versus what would have to change that you do not wish to change. Understand Bright that the idea of making change is intrinsic to the functioning of human beings, as you know them. But change for the sake of achieving a specific image or ideal of what one can be, can at times, be misleading and harmful to the individuals well being. So with this exercise Bright, I want you to ask yourself, is it necessary to make the changes you imagine, to achieve the vision of the life you would like ? Can that life arise now by accepting the way things are ? Ask yourself, is this life that you imagine to be perfect or ideal, going to give you what you really think is important ? Can you not achieve these things without having to chase an ideal ? Can you not honour the needs of the deepest parts of your being, without trying to become something else ? As you are, you have all that you need to be content and fulfilled. So we ask you, what is your true vision of your realized self and why is it distant in another part of your life ? Or, can that aspiration be realized now ? What is at fault – the lack of conditions or the skewing of your perception of how things are. A simple question Bright – think about it !”
Here’s my latest TSM, TSM 61 – a long TSM (1hr:29 mins) I recorded this morning on my walk. Yes I missed a whole bunch. I’m still wading through editing and changing file formats on another 22 TSMs. So this is where I’m at today.
In this monologue I explore the idea of the Greater Self with a couple of basic exercises tat I practice and I explore that age old drama – the purpose of your life and the meaning of life. Given it’s a subject that troubled me for many years, I thought I would give back what I’ve learned, so that it might benefit those of you struggling with the same issue. I understand the issue now in a way which brings great peace to my day to day experience of life. And its my wish that this discussion helps you to reach the same sense of peace with your life.
Excuse the wind early on and my constant discussions about the wild life !
Some time ago someone asked me “What is self awareness ?” (I think it was JD) and at the time I thought “How do I answer that ?”. So that question has sat in my head for months and today I thought I’d offer a simple explanation of self awareness.
First start by asking “What is self ?”. Make it personal by asking “What am I ?”. This is an ancient question, and using the so called Neti Neti (not this, not this) approach http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Neti_neti, we can penetrate an intellectual and felt experience of the answer. But then using Ramana Maharshi’s approach, ask “What is it that asks “What am I ?” ?”” (Ramana used who in place of what) – http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Ramana_Maharshi . When you penetrate this from a felt persepective, you quickly know that you are something far beyond all you think you are. Maybe we could say a primordial consciousness experiencing the body. But words are hopelessly inadequate. It is the perception that you are something beyond the body and even the witness of all taking place in the body.
So explore this. Understand what it feels like. Know the perception. Go beyond just an intellectual understanding. This is the most important step to discovering what the self is.
Then, using the mind, learn about how your mind functions and how your body functions. Notice your thoughts, the silence between thoughts, the witnesseser of your thoughts, the emotions that arise in your mind and heart, the feelings in the body. Notice how these change according to your posture – sitting, standing, lying down and moving. Notice how certain activities and certain foods and thoughts change your emotions and the experiences in the body. Discover what feeds what Ramana calls the “I THOUGHT” and use Ramana’s first question to discover how it develops and functions.
The mind is located in both the body and is beyond the body. Because of this, the mind has different aspects, which can be experienced through dialogue and felt character. But most people only recognize one aspect – one voice within. Go beyond this, see the character of the other aspects within. We might say there are two selves in one. The small self – which resides in the body and sees itself as separate and impermanent and the greater self – which resides in all and is not separate but is one and is eternal. Ramana is effectively encouraging us to shift our perception from the small self to the greater self.
A human being is both the small self and greater self. True self awareness is recognizing both our dual and non dual nature and how each functions. It is not getting stuck in either.
Thanks everyone for your well wishes. And thank you Darci for you know what. You shouldn’t have ! It is much appreciated !!!
I am still crook today but have dragged myself into my study to write this. I’ve been naughty the last few days. I should have stayed away from all electronics but I haven’t. Some of that time I have been reading the Kindle re-release of John Mack’s “Passport to the Cosmos”. I first read some of John Mack’s books in the mid 90s’ and I have a feeling I read some of this book in a local library, but back then I was still coming to grips with my own experiences and some of the things that were explored in his books were outside of my conscious understanding. So now as I read this book, it’s all so easy to digest. I don’t agree with all of the insights of the so-called abductees but I can respect how they see things. I greatly admire the way that John Mack connected with their entire experience and nurtured many of them to a point of acceptance. I think it is the best book ever written about the ET contact experience. My only wish is that John was able to connect the contact experiences and their subsequent spiritual transformations to the work of Carl Jung and the Transpersonal psychologists and anthropologists.
So every night when I go to bed for the last 3 nights, I’ve been thinking about the contact experience and what it means to me. As a result of this I’ve had some new insights, that I’ll try share over the next few months.
For now I’d like to say something about how the perception of ET contact changes humans.
I’ve talked before about the contact phenomenon following a DEVELOPMENTAL CONTINUUM, where a person grows through the experience and subsequently shifts in their perception of the experience. What I haven’t said before is that everybody is different. Every body changes in their experience of ET contact but not everybody experiences a change in their perceptions of contact. Some people seem to stay fixed in their perceptions of what has been happening to them. And that to me, seems a real shame for the folks who see only bad aliens.
What seems to happen to me, is that the experience itself changes across the life span, depending on how old we are and where we’re at psychologically and spiritually. Initially, it seems like we have no control and we experience an inability to remain conscious. We may discover that strange medical procedures were carried out on our body and strange interactions done with our mind. Gradually we become aware of our experiences and may even be conscious through part of an experience or an entire experience. During this phase we may be shown things or taught things about all manner of subjects. John Mack’s abductees all seemed to be taught about the preciousness of life on this planet and the need for us to change our ways to save Earth from mass extinctions. Later we may be taught about the true nature of reality and who the ETs are and where they come from. During either of these phases we may be given tours around the craft. Later when we have lost all fear, we are given full opportunity to interact with the sentience of craft – through enjoying a room of our own, learning from the craft, enjoying food from the craft, toileting, bathing or showering and piloting the craft. From this point onwards, contact seems evolve into a combination of opportunities and activities – which include visiting other worlds and meeting many different races (although you may meet other races at any stage). Through out all phases, you will receive regular monitoring and assessments of your physical and emotional health.
But not everyone seems to seems to have these opportunities and if they do, they don’t perceive them as opportunities. The diagram below is a rough effort on my part to show the movement or lack of movement in perception and growth that takes place in people who have contact with beings from other worlds. I’ve attached the name of some people who you may know from this field and I’ve also attached the names of some researchers.
To make this diagram, I’ve had to make certain judgements and I could be wrong about my perceptions of these individuals. So what this diagram shows is my perception of the general changes in certain individuals. So take Credo Mutwa, who is well known to David Icke followers. Credo sees the ETs as parasitic aliens, who are using humans for their own benefit. He has continued to perceive contact as traumatic and painful. But while angry with the aliens who control Earth, he perceives that he has gained benefit from the knowledge they have given him. Whitley Strieber seems to be somewhere in the middle. And although he was aware of his contacts before many other people and has explored them in great depth, he still seems to see them with a degree of ambiguity, uncertainty and concern. Mike Clelland of Hidden Experience blog http://mikeclelland.com/ / http://hiddenexperience.blogspot.com.au/, has been grappling with contact in a public way, for quite a while now and my sense is that Mike is still very suspicious of those orchestrating his contacts. Mike is open but equally uncertain. Rachel Bree, my ex -wife is at the other end of the continuum. She met Dude when she was 4 years old and has always known what the ETs are really like. Despite some discomfort with unexpected events, she has always trusted and looked up to the ETs and knows they love and care for her. (She doesn’t feel that way about humanity though !). When I spoke to my son Toa, he put himself now about 3/4 of teh way along teh continuum – suggesting he’s still a bit frightened of letting go. I place my self now at the far end but initially when I started having conscious encounters, although I was always excited, I was admittedly a little scared. In the same group I also place Bernado Peixoto and Sequoyah Trueblood – (abductees who feature prominently in Passport to the Cosmos). And while Passport to the Cosmos contains a number of so called abductees who I would think of as embodying a very strong New Age Mythos, many of them could also be placed in the same group.
You”ll notice that I have also added some researchers. David Jacobs, seems to have maintained the same view of contact – that humanity is dealing with an alien threat, that seeks to use and abuse us. Bud Hopkins, despite a great deal of pioneering work remains an alarmist of sorts who sees aliens as intruders who are doing terrible things to humans. John Mack, came from a place of great uncertainty and in his time, I think came to recognize the ET contact experience in the same way that many contactees do – as a form of encounter with teh divine. It seems to me, that not only do those who have contact experiences pass through some sort of Developmental Continuum (whether their is a radical shift in their perceptions or not) but those who research the subject also pass through a Developmental Continuum – which seems to reflect the same sort of inner features. This in turn seems to be reflected in the populous. And hence now, we can see a multitude of divisions that fit somewhere along the same kind of continuum.
In a lot of the community work I did I noticed that the “squeaky wheel”, the one that most the made noise, got the most attention and sadly, I think the same is true in this field. Those who have the loudest voices are the ones declaring how insidious and bad the aliens are. If only we had another John Mack !
What do these difference in initial and changing perceptions reflect ? I’m not sure. But I think it may reflect several things. First how willing we are to accept challenges to our world view and accept the need for change in our world view. Second, different temperaments, seem to be predisposed to being Victims and others to being Empowered by experience. Third, I suspect that Victim type personalities have a long and probably unknown/suppressed history of trauma and that Empowered type personalities have come in contact with their traumas and integrated them into who they consciously are. Fourth – the innate ability to trust, seems to be lacking in Victims. Fifth – everybody is a product of their conditioning via family systems, education, work, society, religion, ethnicity, nationality, interests etc. Those with rigid conditioning that has entrapped them in certain ways of thinking, may end up developing Victim type personalities who see ET contact as a hostile alien abduction, driven by ulterior motives. Those who can see the impact of their conditioning on their thought processes, may end up developing Empowered personalities who see ET contact as connection with the divine. Sixth – those that perceive the universe to be determined by an internal locus of control are OK with whatever happens, while those who perceive the universe to be determined by an external locus of control
There seems to be to me a kind of feedback loop going on in the psyche of all who have encountered ET contact. If you start off as a Victim type personality, you seem to internalize the idea that you are controlled and life isn’t fair. And unless you get past that idea, you will never get to to become the Empowered type personality that seems to internalize the idea that you control how you react to everything and that life is fair. If you latch on too tightly to those dark ideas of absolutely having to have control over this body, you are going to suffer immensely. And the same is true whether you’re sick with disease and need to trust others to help heal you or care for you or whether you need to trust in what the ETs are doing. There is so much attachment to the body and those that are heavily attached, can talk all they want about spirit but unless they let go of that attachment to controlling the body, they will never understand spirit and the boundlessness of spirit. If a human abducted me and did things to me, despite my knowledge of spirit, I wouldn’t like that because I know what cruelty humans are capable of. Still I would try to relinquish the need for absolute control. But an ET can take me anytime because I trust in their intentions and can move past the challenges which come to the body.
I think perhaps the most important thing about the contact phenomenon, is that it cracks open our perception of reality and in the aftermath of dealing with that, we have a choice about how we integrate what has happened to us and our new perceptions of reality. Do we choose to look favorably on what we have learned or do we recoil in horror ? If we look favorably we begin to see all of life as an opportunity for growth and development and feel deep connection to ALL things. If we look unfavorably we begin to see threats everywhere and life as an exhausting process of frustration and self defense. Ultimately it’s all about whether we embrace separateness or wholeness. If we embrace wholeness, we accept that separateness is am aspect of the whole. If we embrace separateness, we never accept or embrace the whole.
So these are all generalizations. I am not saying they’re strictly true for everyone but I think there are strong correlations between those who see themselves as victims (and if they don’t they act as victims) and those that feel empowered.
In the past and future history of this subject there will always be people like Credo Mutwa and people like me – people who see both ends of the spectrum and who avidly support what they believe to be true. You must decide for yourself what is true for you !
I can’t tell you how you should feel about the experience of contact. All I can do is tell you what I have learned about myself, the ETs and the experience of contact. And if you go out and try to have contact and you’re successful, you may learn for yourself that the ETs mean us no harm and are here to nurture us.
John Mack confirmed this when he in Passport to the Cosmos he said :
“…relate their abduction experiences to a kind of cosmic game in which a lonely Creator learns Itself through a splitting of consciousness – “an explosion into the multiplicity of Self,”…Out of the primordial potential, God spawns beings who separate from Him and then choose to reconnect. But in the case of humankind, the experiment went awry, as many of us have lost connection with the creative principal altogether. The alien beings seem to play a part in reconnecting the experiencers to the Creator or Source.”
In an interview on NBC (http://www.bibliotecapleyades.net/vida_alien/alien_abductionabductees25.htm) John Mack suggested :
“The purpose of doing this work,” Dr. Mack replied, “is to open us to the idea that the universe may be vastly more interesting, containing entities, energies, beings that we did not know existed. When we open that consciousness, we open to a larger reality. We’re not simply Earth-bound in our consciousness as if we were the top intelligence in the cosmos. We come more modestly to realize we are in connection with energies, beings, whatever it may be that is beyond ourselves. And that would be a very healthy development for this species, it seems to me.”
And that to me is what the ET contact experience is about in a nutshell. Whether we see the ETs as manifestations of the Divine/Source/God is irrelevant. We’re in contact with a larger reality, that is within us and within which we co-exist. When we open up to that, we have no choice but to grow and transform our limited perceptions about reality and the nature of Self.
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PS. Did that make any sense. I’m still groggy with this Flu ?
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The following is a small reading from my book on consciousness, as written through the “higher dimensional aspect” that calls it’s self Alapo (which has in common the root for this name of the Syrian city of Aleppo). I’ve been writing it by hand, so it was very hard reading my own squiggly, illegible writing. Bear with me as I make a few mistakes and miss a few words here and there. I think it will give you a flavour of what is to come.
This book is an experiment in opening one’s self up to other aspects (see TSM17).