An Update & TSM71 : Analytical Thinking and Learning to Feel Through Engagement
I don’t feel like blogging yet.
I’ve just received news that I may not be eligible for the tumour treatment I have been preparing for in Sydney. After waiting 3 months, I apparently I have to wait until all my options have run out. Medically, I thought that was already the case. So, I am waiting for further clarification. If it gets canned, I need to re-assess everything and re-consider whether I will bother with medical intervention – period ! In the meantime, my sister Susy is still having radiotherapy and chemotherapy for her brain tumours and starting to lose her hair and feel some side effects. I am in the process of trying to distill 9 years of learning about tumours and how to live and heal, into a novel sized letter for her. In a way, it’s kind of cathartic for me, to pass on what I have learned and to reflect on my own fuck ups.
After feeling pissed off for an hour this morning, I am now feeling better. I needed a good reminder, to remember that everything is just as it should be. Dude’s words keep playing in my head – “let go of expectation and control !”.
Who knows what the tide will bring ?
Here’s this mornings monologue, made prior to my small kick in the guts !
For the next few days I will be honouring exactly the subject I spoke about this morning – feeling ! And feeling everything !
Posted on May 4, 2016, in Healing, The Something Monologues, Uncategorized, Updates and tagged analytical thinking, Bright Garlick, cancer, ET and I, feeling, healing, The Something Monologues, tumours, writing. Bookmark the permalink. 2 Comments.